Coal to Diamonds.
I fell in love with LiveJournal when I could write without worrying about my audience. More than a decade later I find myself spending hours trying to find a one sentence update that said everything I was feeling without sounding dramatic or whiny.
I think I'm over the dishonesty in that.
Life is not as easy as I had imagined it to be. I'm finally becoming ok with that.
What scares me more than anything, right now, is how optimistic I have become/am becoming.
As the shit has piled on me this year, I war-cry. I am not defeated. I am defeating.
I wanted someone to see me and know who I was. I wanted this person to lift me up to become that person.
That's not how life works. Only I can decide who I am or who I am meant to be. Well... I've decided.
I will win! Suck it!
I think I'm over the dishonesty in that.
Life is not as easy as I had imagined it to be. I'm finally becoming ok with that.
What scares me more than anything, right now, is how optimistic I have become/am becoming.
As the shit has piled on me this year, I war-cry. I am not defeated. I am defeating.
I wanted someone to see me and know who I was. I wanted this person to lift me up to become that person.
That's not how life works. Only I can decide who I am or who I am meant to be. Well... I've decided.
I will win! Suck it!