to my exes...all of you

[insideimcold]

there's always been someone else.  as long as i could remember...someone else that's been in the back of your head. the person you think about when you wake up and see me.  the one i logically have no reason to be jealous of...why?
everyone's got their flaws, but i have YET to be any of your first choices...no matter how i try, how i change, no

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Never once did I say I gave up on you. I gave up on me. I never once thought that it wasnt worth it to try. I just can't do it. I can't push through all the arguing. Everytime I thought I had a strong hold and tried...BAM anotehr arguemnt over somethign that didnt need to be argued over, and it knocked me back. You talk about hurt...well it hurt everytime we argued. It hurts knowing that we can't be the way we once were. I have felt too much pain myself trying to bear through our difficulties. I dont cry very often, but do you know how many times I have gotten that swellign feeling in teh back of my throat after arguing with you? I care about you, and that's just it. I care about you too much to keep going through this. We are to the point of where we have some sort of spat everytime to talk. I don't know what to do. I have already told you about how I am confused. I am sorry.

Also, you will always be a positive part of my life. It seems that if we arent dating, you do think you are positive for me, and that is not true. I dont want to lose your friendship. If that happens I fear that we may never be any sort of close again. I hope that soon things will be renewed with us and I dont want you to not be a part of my life. I just care about you too much to continue this ongoing battle.

I seriously hope you understand what I mean.