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[inside_tommorow]

I wonder everyday if you miss me the same
because the hollow feeling inside is growing bigger
and the feelings are deepening 
I haven't seen you in years and one phone call brings me back to the past 
all the feelings come rushing back and overwhelm me like the sea
filling my lungs and taking my breath away just like you did
but now we have two different lives
and we are such different people
I can't help but wonder what if
what if we could be together 
and live our lives as one
you could rescue me from the ocean I am drowning in 
the ocean of loneliness that I can't escape 
because I can't talk to you 
or see you
I can't even pretend you and I were ever anything 
I can't entertain the thought, the feeling, the memory
of what was or could have been
I am moving on 
but not willingly 
I am moving on 
but it's as if I am still sinking 
I need to talk or just see you I just 
want you 
but the sea is rising and
the sea is darkening
it is pulling me down
into blackness
into missing you more than wanting to live
it is sickening and yet I can't let you go
Please come back
Come rescue me
save me from sinking
sinking further into this ocean of loneliness 
Bring me back 
back to higher ground
back to you