Meh..
Today I am like 121lbs..let me break this down for you.
I haven't been 121lbs in like a year or two.
HW:146lbs
CW:121lbs
LW:94lbs
GW1:135lbs {x}
GW2:130lbs {x}
GW 3:125lbs{x}
gw4:120lbs
gw5:115lbs
gw6:110lbs
gw7:105lbs
GW8:100lbs
Today is the third of my ABC .
Yesterday night after work around 11:30pm? I was laying on the floor (Don't ask I'm odd)
And my husband starts like inspecting me.and feeling parts of y body (legs,stomach, waste,ect.)
And of course I'm like..What? And he says "Nothing I just love you." Then he lifts up one leg the the other and looks at them and says "Jeeze Duckie, You have been losing weight you're legs are getting smaller and smaller ." My hear drops and I think He'll preach me out. He smiles. God I love him.
He leaned behind me when I weighed myself and he said wow 120 perfect! (it really said like 124-123) and I said you're wrong you aren't looknig at it right..and he said it looks like 118-119 to me babe. Maybe t does say that..maybe I'm not looknig at it right..lol
ana/mia survey
In Depth
How many calories do you eat in a day, on average?: Less than 700?
Do you throw up your food on occasion? Yes..Trying to get over it. good so far.
Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?: No .
Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track?: No I exercise alone
Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?: always.
Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long?:Every other day. About 5 days.
Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?: occasionally.
Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?: No.
Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?: Yes
Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?: No
Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?: Yes..That didn't work out.
Body Image Q's
Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?: Most definately..
What part of your body would you change?: My butt,arms,legs,back,stomach, everything..
On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?: 3?
Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?: Yes.
Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?: Yes .
Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?: No
Health/Food
Do you think you eat healthy enough?:sure
Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?: sort of.
Fat grams?: Yes
Calories?: Yes
Are you often tired/fatigued?: yes but I get over it.
Do you feel more energised after eating food?: I feel sick.
Do you eat meat?: occasionally lately not really.
Do you eat your food in a certain way? I pick it apart( husband hates it but thinks it's cute lol.)
Do people tell you you look sick or famished?: sure
Have you ever thrown up blood?: Yes
Is your heart bpm above 49?: wouldn't know.
Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?: Some times..
Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?: No
What's your opinion of Pro-Ana?: IIt isn't well andd good..but I've learned to live with it..Won't recomend it.
Do you have any other mental disorders? yes but I won't share with a quiz monster
What's your favourite food to eat?: vegetables.
Do you often wish you didn't have an ED?: sometimes..
\Do you want to recover?: I have already tried..I don't think I'm capable.
So does anyone live in California?
I haven't been 121lbs in like a year or two.
HW:146lbs
CW:121lbs
LW:94lbs
GW1:135lbs {x}
GW2:130lbs {x}
GW 3:125lbs{x}
gw4:120lbs
gw5:115lbs
gw6:110lbs
gw7:105lbs
GW8:100lbs
Today is the third of my ABC .
Yesterday night after work around 11:30pm? I was laying on the floor (Don't ask I'm odd)
And my husband starts like inspecting me.and feeling parts of y body (legs,stomach, waste,ect.)
And of course I'm like..What? And he says "Nothing I just love you." Then he lifts up one leg the the other and looks at them and says "Jeeze Duckie, You have been losing weight you're legs are getting smaller and smaller ." My hear drops and I think He'll preach me out. He smiles. God I love him.
He leaned behind me when I weighed myself and he said wow 120 perfect! (it really said like 124-123) and I said you're wrong you aren't looknig at it right..and he said it looks like 118-119 to me babe. Maybe t does say that..maybe I'm not looknig at it right..lol
ana/mia survey
In Depth
How many calories do you eat in a day, on average?: Less than 700?
Do you throw up your food on occasion? Yes..Trying to get over it. good so far.
Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?: No .
Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track?: No I exercise alone
Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?: always.
Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long?:Every other day. About 5 days.
Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?: occasionally.
Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?: No.
Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?: Yes
Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?: No
Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?: Yes..That didn't work out.
Body Image Q's
Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?: Most definately..
What part of your body would you change?: My butt,arms,legs,back,stomach, everything..
On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?: 3?
Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?: Yes.
Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?: Yes .
Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?: No
Health/Food
Do you think you eat healthy enough?:sure
Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?: sort of.
Fat grams?: Yes
Calories?: Yes
Are you often tired/fatigued?: yes but I get over it.
Do you feel more energised after eating food?: I feel sick.
Do you eat meat?: occasionally lately not really.
Do you eat your food in a certain way? I pick it apart( husband hates it but thinks it's cute lol.)
Do people tell you you look sick or famished?: sure
Have you ever thrown up blood?: Yes
Is your heart bpm above 49?: wouldn't know.
Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?: Some times..
Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?: No
What's your opinion of Pro-Ana?: IIt isn't well andd good..but I've learned to live with it..Won't recomend it.
Do you have any other mental disorders? yes but I won't share with a quiz monster
What's your favourite food to eat?: vegetables.
Do you often wish you didn't have an ED?: sometimes..
\Do you want to recover?: I have already tried..I don't think I'm capable.
So does anyone live in California?