Okay, one final rant...
I'm back... Kate's right, this thing really should come with an "addictive" warning. Anyway, I just want to moan one last time because I keep going on and on and people are going to get sick of me doing it. :) If i post this, i can always refer back to it and add things.. he he.
I'm really sad :(
Well, I'm not really sure I am sad... I'm confused, i think. Yep, definitely confused. There is so much to think about and my feelings jump from being so excited one minute, to being absolutely terrified the next... I'm afraid of so many things - I'm scared about not finding anywhere to live, not making friends. I'm worried that I'll get depressed and have noone to turn to - what do i do then?! It sounds silly but the thought that everyone's lives will continue without me is scary too. I can't explain it very well but it'll be like noone will need me anymore because I don't actually play a massive part in in the grand scheme of things. What do i do if people do forget about me? Lei and my uni mates might miss me the first month but then they'll get used to it and it'll be like I never existed. Same with London.
Argh, it's depressing but I guess I've got to risk it. I have no choice, i don't get my degree otherwise... :)
I'm having real trouble trying to express myself at the moment - my brain never works in a hungover state. God, it never works at all, if I'm honest... :S Anyway, I guess the reason I feel like this is cos if my dad is able to forget I exist other people will... I don't like thinking that I'm that unmemorable.
Ah well, enough with the talk of Limoges... I'm going to post all my shenanigans on here and we'll see how silly I am :)
(I solemly swear that I will be up to no good in Limoges)
Lxx
I'm really sad :(
Well, I'm not really sure I am sad... I'm confused, i think. Yep, definitely confused. There is so much to think about and my feelings jump from being so excited one minute, to being absolutely terrified the next... I'm afraid of so many things - I'm scared about not finding anywhere to live, not making friends. I'm worried that I'll get depressed and have noone to turn to - what do i do then?! It sounds silly but the thought that everyone's lives will continue without me is scary too. I can't explain it very well but it'll be like noone will need me anymore because I don't actually play a massive part in in the grand scheme of things. What do i do if people do forget about me? Lei and my uni mates might miss me the first month but then they'll get used to it and it'll be like I never existed. Same with London.
Argh, it's depressing but I guess I've got to risk it. I have no choice, i don't get my degree otherwise... :)
I'm having real trouble trying to express myself at the moment - my brain never works in a hungover state. God, it never works at all, if I'm honest... :S Anyway, I guess the reason I feel like this is cos if my dad is able to forget I exist other people will... I don't like thinking that I'm that unmemorable.
Ah well, enough with the talk of Limoges... I'm going to post all my shenanigans on here and we'll see how silly I am :)
(I solemly swear that I will be up to no good in Limoges)
Lxx