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my life is like a rollarcoaster and i want off of it! right now. to share all my thoughts and feelings in this entry would take way to long and bore the one person that reads it. how am i doing? i feel like a completely different individual the last two weeks, like i am not me any longer. i have done and said to many hurtful things to people and not even cared about how they've felt until after the fact...then i wonder why i hurt from it. the smallest thing i do wrong can keep me in my room for days now, not wanting to go out and face the world. i need a job badly. i dont have any modivation or confidence to go out and look for one though. ryan i can tell is getting fed up with me all together not doing anything but sitting around and feeling sorry for depressed self. i just dont like who i am anymore.