today is the day
it's been a long long time.
it's been four months since the preverbial shit hit the fan.
after an 8 year relationship and 4.5 years married, i am divorced as of 11/7.
i lost my job because someone set me up...sounds lame, but that's the truth..i swear on my cats lives it's the truth.
my heart still aches everyday and i still cry a lot but most don't care to notice.
although i know it's for the best, it's not making it any easier to deal with. he leaves tonight and i'll most likely never see him again. i guess you don't know how this feels until you're here...i had no clue.
i'm not sure i ever want to risk this pain ever again.
i'm holding out for a romantic person to bring me back to life.
i'm in amazement how this year turned out. shocked really.
i'm jealous that he has rebounded so quickly because he won't be alone for the holidays no matter how weird and unhealthy that situation is.
the old addage of things happen for a reason better be true.
i just recently vacationed with a person who could quite possibly be one of the best people i've ever known. and when he would hold me, i was truly happy again ao i know i'm able to love again, just so cautious now and i wonder if there is another person out there, will that person bother chasing after me...or what's left of me.
and after everything is said and done, i learned quite a bit but i in no way know everything.
i want to dance in the rain with a lover and a true friend. i want to be told that i'm loved. i want to be held by someone who won't let go. oh the things that i would give to be held right now, it's insane. you can't buy what i want.
it's been four months since the preverbial shit hit the fan.
after an 8 year relationship and 4.5 years married, i am divorced as of 11/7.
i lost my job because someone set me up...sounds lame, but that's the truth..i swear on my cats lives it's the truth.
my heart still aches everyday and i still cry a lot but most don't care to notice.
although i know it's for the best, it's not making it any easier to deal with. he leaves tonight and i'll most likely never see him again. i guess you don't know how this feels until you're here...i had no clue.
i'm not sure i ever want to risk this pain ever again.
i'm holding out for a romantic person to bring me back to life.
i'm in amazement how this year turned out. shocked really.
i'm jealous that he has rebounded so quickly because he won't be alone for the holidays no matter how weird and unhealthy that situation is.
the old addage of things happen for a reason better be true.
i just recently vacationed with a person who could quite possibly be one of the best people i've ever known. and when he would hold me, i was truly happy again ao i know i'm able to love again, just so cautious now and i wonder if there is another person out there, will that person bother chasing after me...or what's left of me.
and after everything is said and done, i learned quite a bit but i in no way know everything.
i want to dance in the rain with a lover and a true friend. i want to be told that i'm loved. i want to be held by someone who won't let go. oh the things that i would give to be held right now, it's insane. you can't buy what i want.