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I almost forgot something else... My own lovely wonderful boyfriend (can be mean sometimes)... HE MADE ME JEALOUS! ARG ARG!!!! I don't know if he knew that he was making me jealous (but I think he knew because he was waiting for me to look at him). Here's what happened today:
Right after lunch, we went to the 3rd floor and was hangning out in the hall with christian and couple of friends. I was chatting with Kat, I think and then I saw MY boyfriend, yes yes, MY BOYFRIEND's hand on another girl's knee! I didn't do anything about it but I wish that I did because he can't do that... He can but he's my boyfriend for god's sake! I was... well.. it's fair to say that I was jealous and I hate being jealous because it makes me feel selfish but that wasn't being selfish, he was being mean to me like always. Yeah yeah, I know that he was joking (i hope) but still.... you know? I don't really like it when he's flirting/being handy with another girls... I am sure he wouldn't like it if it was me with a another guy... I thought I'd never hear myself saying this but... being in a relationship is effing hard. I mean, it inculdes controling my emotions and stuff like that but... I love christian and I trust him, just... only if he didn't do that because it'll lead me into thinking that he is... no, he's not. K... I think I'll talk to him about that tonight. Right now, I am thinking if he does that to her in another classes when I am not around? :-/ Now, I am worried but I trust him and if he says that he does love me then he loves me. I would really love it if we stayed together through summer and have a long relationship. I am not making any expection but I would love having a long relationship because I am not into dating and experience with different guys. I just want to be with Christian and that would be amazing, I consider myself lucky if that happens. Yeah, I def trust him.
thanks, I'm not really jealous as I was before. Talking about this really does help and yeah, everything's fine. He was just joking around and like everyone told me, they would never end up as a couple.
Sandra Mae Frank + Christian Woode Hannah = great couple
Right after lunch, we went to the 3rd floor and was hangning out in the hall with christian and couple of friends. I was chatting with Kat, I think and then I saw MY boyfriend, yes yes, MY BOYFRIEND's hand on another girl's knee! I didn't do anything about it but I wish that I did because he can't do that... He can but he's my boyfriend for god's sake! I was... well.. it's fair to say that I was jealous and I hate being jealous because it makes me feel selfish but that wasn't being selfish, he was being mean to me like always. Yeah yeah, I know that he was joking (i hope) but still.... you know? I don't really like it when he's flirting/being handy with another girls... I am sure he wouldn't like it if it was me with a another guy... I thought I'd never hear myself saying this but... being in a relationship is effing hard. I mean, it inculdes controling my emotions and stuff like that but... I love christian and I trust him, just... only if he didn't do that because it'll lead me into thinking that he is... no, he's not. K... I think I'll talk to him about that tonight. Right now, I am thinking if he does that to her in another classes when I am not around? :-/ Now, I am worried but I trust him and if he says that he does love me then he loves me. I would really love it if we stayed together through summer and have a long relationship. I am not making any expection but I would love having a long relationship because I am not into dating and experience with different guys. I just want to be with Christian and that would be amazing, I consider myself lucky if that happens. Yeah, I def trust him.
thanks, I'm not really jealous as I was before. Talking about this really does help and yeah, everything's fine. He was just joking around and like everyone told me, they would never end up as a couple.
Sandra Mae Frank + Christian Woode Hannah = great couple