I hate this game...
Sometimes all you can do is be nice and show you care...and pray to god you don't fall on your fucking face.
Positive thoughts put positive actions in motion to create positive change...and therefore I'm staying positive if I'm ever going to be happy and satisfied.
I refuse to believe that everyone is cold hearted and two faced. Someone somewhere will love me for me and I won't have to play this game anymore. I just want to be myself.
I have come to a point in my life where I finally love myself for who I am. I'm ready to accept someone else in my life.
To clarify... I'm tired of the dating game. I hate trying to figure out signals, questioning every word I say or text, analyzing his responses and every action. It is so fucking exhausting and degrading. What ever happened to complete honesty and getting shit on the table?? Oh that's right...you men have catagorized those women into the "psycho" label. Sometimes I wonder if its because people just don't have enough guts to say whats REALLY on their mind because they want to fuck with you some more and they haven't completely gotten their fill. I don't like having my time wasted or my heart fucked with. I might be a tough chick, but my heart is so fragile.
No, nothing bad has happened if thats what you are wondering. I just sat back tonight and thought about how wrapped up in this dating game I am and how horribly it fucks with my sanity and self confidence. It's disgusting. The debut of the book "He's Just Not That Into You" confirms a bajillion fears that us women have and now...we're even crazier because we've just realized how REALLY fucking rediculous this game actually is. Maybe the problem is...we know what we want far before the man has even comprehended a spark.
I'm just gonna say it. Call me dingbat crazy... I've got fireworks goin on with this one. And I'm sitting pretty hoping he considers me his property. Oh goodie. The game has really begun. FML. I'm just gonna stay positive until I get a wack across the face. Wish me luck. I'm diving head first.