ad astra per aspera
i still can't believe i'm a mother.
9 months ago... i was happy, sad, confused, manic. i was skating, playing roller derby, drinking, smoking, getting high, laughing, screaming, crying, loving, hating, hurting, getting hurt, searching, destroying, building, thinking and definitely not thinking.
i was crazed and crazy, unreliable and irresponsible.
and here, in this world of motherhood, i'm more calm and worried than i've ever been.
i know i won't be a perfect mother. i know i'll fuck things up.
but i'll try my best and i'll love her more than anything ever, forever.
9 months ago... i was happy, sad, confused, manic. i was skating, playing roller derby, drinking, smoking, getting high, laughing, screaming, crying, loving, hating, hurting, getting hurt, searching, destroying, building, thinking and definitely not thinking.
i was crazed and crazy, unreliable and irresponsible.
and here, in this world of motherhood, i'm more calm and worried than i've ever been.
i know i won't be a perfect mother. i know i'll fuck things up.
but i'll try my best and i'll love her more than anything ever, forever.