It's always the same......It's never going to change...
I don't miss the person that I used to be. I don't miss the way I used to act. I don't miss the people that pretended to be my friend. I don't miss all the drama. I don't miss all the bullshit. I'd like to say that I'm happy here. I'd like to say that I ran away and didn't look back. If I never think about my past it will just disappear, right? It will all just fade away and be gone.
But it's not like that....
It's not like that at all. No matter how many lies I tell about the things that I have let slip out over the years...no matter how many people I try to convince that I was just trying to get attention... that I am so fucked up...it never helps. It doesn't make anything better or easier. It doesn't make all the pain go away.
I've learned a lot about myself. I like who I am....but I don't like the things I've done.
I'm so happy here.... I'm so happy.... I'm so happy.... Who the FUCK am I trying to kid...goddammit....
I think I am a hopeless cause....
**Jess I miss you more than anything ... call me ... talk to me ... I miss you in my life ... I need you .... I love you... I wish I had spent more time with you when I had the chance. ....I need a hug ... I need you .... I love you....** <33 xoxox <33 don't forget about me, please don't ever forget about me...
But it's not like that....
It's not like that at all. No matter how many lies I tell about the things that I have let slip out over the years...no matter how many people I try to convince that I was just trying to get attention... that I am so fucked up...it never helps. It doesn't make anything better or easier. It doesn't make all the pain go away.
I've learned a lot about myself. I like who I am....but I don't like the things I've done.
I'm so happy here.... I'm so happy.... I'm so happy.... Who the FUCK am I trying to kid...goddammit....
I think I am a hopeless cause....
**Jess I miss you more than anything ... call me ... talk to me ... I miss you in my life ... I need you .... I love you... I wish I had spent more time with you when I had the chance. ....I need a hug ... I need you .... I love you....** <33 xoxox <33 don't forget about me, please don't ever forget about me...