its cold out, but things are looking up
i am emotionally exhausted. i am mentally drained, and i still have a weeks worth of tests to take til wednesday. issues are being dealt with. and though it may take me a while, i am trying to accept all that has happened. so just be patient with me.
my friends are great in that they are putting up with all my crap. i love them for that. i can't help but feel like such a bad person at times. so this is me saying i am sorry to put everyone through this, and that i am really trying hard to make this better. so bare with me a little longer, thats all i can ask.
for a while, i had thought that i might be losing two really good friendships, not just one. and i really need those two friendships. they are probably two of the most important ones. i have a feeling they will be the ones to help me find the real me. and i really need that. so the friendships are mended, and seem to be getting stronger by the day. at least that is how i see it.
i've been writing poetry again, and also realized some of my poems from the past aren't to bad either. i even have people that think that my poems are kind of good. yayness for the happiness of writing good poems. i am glad i have my outlets of poetry and music.
well i am off to get ready for lunch with mo, the awesome drummer chick. laters.
my friends are great in that they are putting up with all my crap. i love them for that. i can't help but feel like such a bad person at times. so this is me saying i am sorry to put everyone through this, and that i am really trying hard to make this better. so bare with me a little longer, thats all i can ask.
for a while, i had thought that i might be losing two really good friendships, not just one. and i really need those two friendships. they are probably two of the most important ones. i have a feeling they will be the ones to help me find the real me. and i really need that. so the friendships are mended, and seem to be getting stronger by the day. at least that is how i see it.
i've been writing poetry again, and also realized some of my poems from the past aren't to bad either. i even have people that think that my poems are kind of good. yayness for the happiness of writing good poems. i am glad i have my outlets of poetry and music.
well i am off to get ready for lunch with mo, the awesome drummer chick. laters.