1. Time/Exhaustion

It’s fair and accurate to say that I’m busy right now. To add to that: I’m constantly freaking exhausted right now in a way that if you’re a teacher or full time educator, I’m sure you’d understand all too well. It’s deceptive to look at hours spent teaching in a day and think ‘Oh, that’s not so bad’ but I come home from the day ( Read more... )

The following contains twittering:

• 23:31 New LJ post: Brat Twitters tinyurl.com/dy7wx3 #
• 09:26 Grah, new security at the museum hates me. #
• 09:55 Linkspam: NBS Nightly News with Ted Philips, March 11th 1970: I'll be over here, trying not to die.. tinyurl.com/7596ja #
• 10:00 Uh... that last tweet should have ended 'die of excitement over Watchmen' * ( Read more... )

I'm still pinning my hopes on the fact that my current virus will no longer be infectious by the time baby comes. I said yesterday that I thought it was peaking and was only going to get better from here. I was, obviously, wrong, and this morning could barely walk straight. Right in the middle of party season, too. Oh fun ( Read more... )

One thing I didn't miss was waking up on Saturday mornings with panic attacks because Oh Bob I have so much housework to do I don't even know where to start!! Neither did I miss that dull ache in my elbow that comes from scrubbing out the microwave ( Read more... )

There was some mention on two of my friends' journals recently of how impossible it is to  describe having ADD. And it is impossible, believe me. It's impossible to comprehend how anyone's brain works, so the only way I know that my brain is different from other people's is that other people seem to find easy what I give myself panic attacks simply ( Read more... )

Midnight today saw me leaving the pub on the way to Sin City at the ballroom for
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As anyone who follows me on Twitter will have noticed, the State of the Brat at the moment is not good. It's doubleplusungood. It's possibly the worst it's been since Christmas, when a few anxiety-inducing confrontations clashed horribly to adjusting to a high-concentration job. Friday was a complete write off as I sobbed continually for about four ( Read more... )

Anxiety attacks are not suitable meal subsitutes

Which you'd expect I'd already know. Still, always nice to learn things afresh, isn't it.

I fixed myself, by the way, with two proper meals and some meditation and I htink I'm OK, now. I joined daemonmuses with
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This is interesting, especially how smug I was at the beginning that of course I'd win the whole thing. (Hint: I didn't)

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[YouTube Link]Boasting of my zenness yesterday turned out to be far too tempting for Fate, and I managed to give myself an anxiety attack in the evening. I think how I should have viewed it, is that I've managed to let go of ( Read more... )

I am having real serious issues concentrating recently. Real real serious can't keep it together to write this post or figure out anything I'm supposed to be doing concentration issues.


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