I have a computer, but less of a brain
After losing yesterday to an emotional breakdown about my power adapter (which wasn't a total loss because it forced me to actually clear my filing backlog), contacting the manufacturer about fixing it under warranty and buying a replacement on eBay, when I went to bed I tried one last attempt at plugging the adapter in.
It worked.
Which is good! I charged my laptop overnight and have a good 8 hours to use it today, at the end of which (hopefully) I'll charge it again and the cycle will renew. I'm still getting a new adapter, and if this one does crap out again I can use the spare. (I'm worried about the spare because the picture doesn't look exactly like mine, but the description included my computer model). So I might contact Asus and ask them not to take my laptop away, because I'm pretty sure that yes, they would take my laptop away if the problem was just with my charger, and I'd lose days to that which I'm not willing to.
That leaves the question of my emotional state, which was fragile enough yesterday as to ring alarm bells. I've been pretty high strung recently, presumably as a reaction to holiday stress and thesis guilt and what am I doing with my life horrors. I also have not been meditating regularly, and that's not helping.
My room, at the moment, is a complete tip. There's stuff in it that doesn't really have a home that I'm just 'temporarily storing' and I'm not devoting the day-to-day time into hanging clothes up, clearing away after laundry &c that in my imagination, Normal People™ do as a matter of course. My ADD brain is exactly the same. I haven't 'had the time' (bullshit, but the story I've told myself) to do the daily clean out that involves just having my brain and my body in the same place for ten minutes, and so the thoughts and anxiety and mess has just accumulated.
I'm aware of this, and I know what's going on, but has it actually made me sit down? Has it bollocks.
Thirty days meme coming later; I didn't want to stick everything in one post.