Awful week, inna nutshell
Thursday: Didn't get upgraded. Positive review on the whole, but didn't get upgraded. I need to get some analysis done and produce more structure for the thing so I'm not drifting. (This is scary as all fuck)
Friday: Off sick with period. Sterghios' birthday party. Was fun. But mostly: period.
Weekend: More of same.
Monday: Was a Day. Still intimdated by structure.
Tuesday: Ahahahaha! OK. Inna nutshell: Hospital. Waiting room. Late. Got someone to stand in. Mildly reprehending email from Paul 1 about it when I got in. Also friend woe. Then more personal, if relatively mild bad news. Woe and stress and drama.
Wednesday: Structure intimidation becomes flat out PANIC at it. Just... staring at a blank word document for too long, panicing and screaming at myself OMG OMG where do I start?!?!? Discovered something decidedly scary about a very good friend. Stressed at people.
Today: feeling, um, better, but still stressed. Have decided to take a step back from stuff for a while - both RP and RL - and focus on PhD. Really. Just need to get over this hurdle. Because I'm terrified.
Love you all.