Apathetic Aspirations
Wow! Could I be MORE dull and uninvolved? ...in these entries...in this life...
Things have changed so much for me this past year and a half. I look back on old entries and find them filled with petty dramas that have little consequence with the passage of only a short amount of time. I guess the question I should be asking myself is WHY my entire world was such a primitive (albeit momentarily exciting) one. Even the memories I beg to remember seem faint and far away. And the future?? The closer I've come to accomplishing what I set out to do, the less interested in doing it I have become. There's lots of things I have come to realize about life, and the sort of life I want. And when it all boils down to the bare basics, all I really want is to be a simple country girl. Of course, I have new aspirations to replace the old, but now I just feel as if I am waiting out the end of this sentence so that I can begin anew. Maybe these worlds will combine; maybe they won't, either way, I'm just ready to get this degree (if they'll give it to me) and get out of here.
Things have changed so much for me this past year and a half. I look back on old entries and find them filled with petty dramas that have little consequence with the passage of only a short amount of time. I guess the question I should be asking myself is WHY my entire world was such a primitive (albeit momentarily exciting) one. Even the memories I beg to remember seem faint and far away. And the future?? The closer I've come to accomplishing what I set out to do, the less interested in doing it I have become. There's lots of things I have come to realize about life, and the sort of life I want. And when it all boils down to the bare basics, all I really want is to be a simple country girl. Of course, I have new aspirations to replace the old, but now I just feel as if I am waiting out the end of this sentence so that I can begin anew. Maybe these worlds will combine; maybe they won't, either way, I'm just ready to get this degree (if they'll give it to me) and get out of here.