Oct 18, 2005 09:38
I learned the beginning of "Passenger Seat" on the piano.
Thanks to this amazing guy I know.
It's beautiful and it makes me so happy. The song and a lot of other things going on in my life.
God's teaching me so much while I'm here. And I've grown so much. I almost hope my family doesn't recognize me when I come home. Am I coming home? God still hasn't answered that question yet. Because even though I'm lonely and want to be with my family-it's not about me and it's not about my family.
There's Jonathan too. I don't know what I would do without Jonathan. I'd probably be a lot more frustrated and unhappy. And I would definitely not believe like I do now. And it's not just him.
It's completely God. Jonathan is a perk. He's the one calling me up every night and encouraging me to stay strong when really all I want to do is go home and give up. And I consider that a huge gift from God. And I love him so incredibly much.
I'm really confused about a lot of things. But without God I know this could have been so much worse.