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BUH.. i'm so... weird. This isn't a recent revelation... but for some reason, every now and then, I am just randomly reminded how weird i am.. ohwell. I hate how we never go over anything beyond face value in world lit. And then hate how everyone always gets off topic in my class. I wish i was in mod c instead. They seem to actually learn. Ms. Naccach is trying to help me with my college stuff.. lol... i think she thinks i'm a super cynical individual.
Sometimes i wish I could just transport people into my mind so that they instantly know what kind of person i am and how i feel about things. There would be no misinterpretation. Or just for a second have someone be me just to feel how i am feeling for a second. Or what i felt before then. Like if you could just touch someone and they instantly understood or felt your thoughts. Almost like in The Green mile when he touches him and shows him what really happened without having to say anything. There are just so many things that i would like people to know but they won't ever know and i'm not posting it on my lj because that would be dumb and retarded. ,,, plus not everyone i know and like reads this... weird how journals become messages to your friends and loved ones and people who you admire. Even people who you find suspicious and barely trust. Its like... i want everyone to know that i hated that 3 headed cat! HAHAAAA!!.... wow.. see what i mean i AM WEIRD! i don't really have anything particular to say. the rest is about neil so for all who don't want to read that.. don't ...read it...
Ahhhh neil.... I won't see him tonight, but atleast i'll be able to get some sleep. It's a hard choice to make: sleep and physical health or.. Neil and mental health. Physical or mental.. which is more important? It's almost like i kill myself for love. We've gotten better with it i think.. i actually got into my house before 12 and or 1am.. i actually got into my house at 11. I can't wait until it gets warmer out. there will be so many places we can go. It's so much easier to watch a sunset overlooking a body of water when you aren't freezing your butt off. ..sometimes it scares me, this relationship and it's amazing qualities. but that's another post. infact that is many previous posts. bah anyway. i type too much on this topic to sound original. but after all is it supposed to be a journal AND i warned you.
Meg
Sometimes i wish I could just transport people into my mind so that they instantly know what kind of person i am and how i feel about things. There would be no misinterpretation. Or just for a second have someone be me just to feel how i am feeling for a second. Or what i felt before then. Like if you could just touch someone and they instantly understood or felt your thoughts. Almost like in The Green mile when he touches him and shows him what really happened without having to say anything. There are just so many things that i would like people to know but they won't ever know and i'm not posting it on my lj because that would be dumb and retarded. ,,, plus not everyone i know and like reads this... weird how journals become messages to your friends and loved ones and people who you admire. Even people who you find suspicious and barely trust. Its like... i want everyone to know that i hated that 3 headed cat! HAHAAAA!!.... wow.. see what i mean i AM WEIRD! i don't really have anything particular to say. the rest is about neil so for all who don't want to read that.. don't ...read it...
Ahhhh neil.... I won't see him tonight, but atleast i'll be able to get some sleep. It's a hard choice to make: sleep and physical health or.. Neil and mental health. Physical or mental.. which is more important? It's almost like i kill myself for love. We've gotten better with it i think.. i actually got into my house before 12 and or 1am.. i actually got into my house at 11. I can't wait until it gets warmer out. there will be so many places we can go. It's so much easier to watch a sunset overlooking a body of water when you aren't freezing your butt off. ..sometimes it scares me, this relationship and it's amazing qualities. but that's another post. infact that is many previous posts. bah anyway. i type too much on this topic to sound original. but after all is it supposed to be a journal AND i warned you.
Meg