my slow descent into alcoholism went something like this
So it's been a while and I've been up to a lot and it takes me forever to get onto this damn site. Anyway, life was pretty good until today. It's not like something extremely devastating happened. NOTHING HAPPENED. And that's my problem. My expectations are too high and I always end up disappointed. I'm a stupid dumb bitch. It's true. Tomorrow I will try my hardest to just focus on myself like I have been doing so eloquently until this point this year. I like being selfish. Selfishness suits me; It's the easiest way out.
Things that keep me going recently are: Scrubs! <3 Dr. Cox is the shit! It's the only thing I bother to watch on TV right now. I'm just realizing how fucking dumb the television is. So pointless. Second, The New Pornographers. They are really really good. Happy music though I'm not really in the mood for it today but I'm happy I discovered them. Third, Books. I'm reading Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close right now and doing a paper on Jean-Paul Sartre's No Exit play which is awesome. Also I have to read Brave New World for school too which I have high expectations for (see there I go again with the high expectations :-X). Last but certainly not least, new "dance" techniques :-)
I finally am seeing my best friend this week in school after a while which is cool, but it really sucks that we both changed so damn much. She did especially and she knows it. I'd like to think I'm pretty much the same. She always makes fun of me for that [for not changing]. I love how we always laugh so much when we're together (over nothing) even when we're both depressed :-)
So yeah it happened again I had a lot of thoughts and they all left me as soon as I started writing in this goddamn journal :(
Time is going fast but I need it to go faster.
I want my freedom. NOW.
Bleh
Keep it RRReal (please),
Brittany
Things that keep me going recently are: Scrubs! <3 Dr. Cox is the shit! It's the only thing I bother to watch on TV right now. I'm just realizing how fucking dumb the television is. So pointless. Second, The New Pornographers. They are really really good. Happy music though I'm not really in the mood for it today but I'm happy I discovered them. Third, Books. I'm reading Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close right now and doing a paper on Jean-Paul Sartre's No Exit play which is awesome. Also I have to read Brave New World for school too which I have high expectations for (see there I go again with the high expectations :-X). Last but certainly not least, new "dance" techniques :-)
I finally am seeing my best friend this week in school after a while which is cool, but it really sucks that we both changed so damn much. She did especially and she knows it. I'd like to think I'm pretty much the same. She always makes fun of me for that [for not changing]. I love how we always laugh so much when we're together (over nothing) even when we're both depressed :-)
So yeah it happened again I had a lot of thoughts and they all left me as soon as I started writing in this goddamn journal :(
Time is going fast but I need it to go faster.
I want my freedom. NOW.
Bleh
Keep it RRReal (please),
Brittany