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if im not anxious and nervous about life than i am sad and depressed. i feel stuck in these polar opposite feelings. When i try to work towards something i start to put myself down and make myself think that it is not worth it. I'm trying to get back into school but as soon as i start to study to get into a school, i get overwhelmed and bored with it and want to go back to goofing off. That's really what ive been in my life just a goof off who didnt take it seriously and now i feel helpless. I do think i know what i could do to change myself to a more productive person but it is so hard to kick back habits.
i'm tired. i dont know what to do with myself anymore. I don't trust myself to change because i have been promising myself that i would change for a long time. I manipulate myself. i make myself think that this time i will change and it will be different, but it never is. i don't like the person i am.
i'm tired. i dont know what to do with myself anymore. I don't trust myself to change because i have been promising myself that i would change for a long time. I manipulate myself. i make myself think that this time i will change and it will be different, but it never is. i don't like the person i am.