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I've utterly maxed out on family time.
Just for tonight. Not like for forever, or even for all of break. But tonight, for the first time since being home, I'm hiding in my room with my computer and being completely and utterly antisocial.
Really when I max out on family time, I mostly max out on Matt time.
Tonight I am truly pretty familied out...but he was the trigger, and he's the only one who actually ever really does much to bother me.
I don't have the energy to bitch excessively, but it's just depressing. I miss having a big brother I like. I don't like having a big brother I don't like being around. And I hate more how much I don't feel like trying. I'm a crap sister, too. But I just can't deal with him. I pick fights with him and I don't like being that person, but he's also...not a...he's a dick. Straight up.
And I know he's unhappy, but he's a jerk.
Sorry, guys. I know you didn't want this on Christmas Eve. I'll cut it. I hope everybody is having a fantastic and festive night :)
Just for tonight. Not like for forever, or even for all of break. But tonight, for the first time since being home, I'm hiding in my room with my computer and being completely and utterly antisocial.
Really when I max out on family time, I mostly max out on Matt time.
Tonight I am truly pretty familied out...but he was the trigger, and he's the only one who actually ever really does much to bother me.
I don't have the energy to bitch excessively, but it's just depressing. I miss having a big brother I like. I don't like having a big brother I don't like being around. And I hate more how much I don't feel like trying. I'm a crap sister, too. But I just can't deal with him. I pick fights with him and I don't like being that person, but he's also...not a...he's a dick. Straight up.
And I know he's unhappy, but he's a jerk.
Sorry, guys. I know you didn't want this on Christmas Eve. I'll cut it. I hope everybody is having a fantastic and festive night :)