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So I figured out why money is so tight this month, and it certainly wasn't a comforting revelation. I first started paying back student loans around October, right when I also picked up one shift at the game store every week. So that income basically supplemented my loan payments. I stopped there when I started Mary Kay, and if anything was actually making slightly more money because of it, so was able to spend much more freely.
Now I have neither to supplement my income and that means, once rent, utilities, student loans, and my credit card bill are paid, I'll often have no money left over. None for food, none to help my dad with the payments of my brand new car, none to use to help pay back C's mom.
I've never had no money. We are making a late utilities payment because we have to wait for our paychecks to get into our accounts on Friday. It's...odd and unsettling, frightening, and exhilarating all at once. All is not totally lost, as I keep reminding myself when I get short of breath. We should find out this week if C's getting a new job, and I have a sort of temporary part-time gig lined up that will just be able to cover any extra costs I have in regards to car payments, food, and paying back C's mom, enough that I will feel secure again. But it's taking so much time to get the ball rolling with both of those opportunities that I fear we'll be struggling even more before the skies clear. At least there is a tangible hope that they will clear.
And honestly...I haven't been as clear-headed and content as I am currently, in a long, long time.
Also, this band is my new favorite. Ever.
Now I have neither to supplement my income and that means, once rent, utilities, student loans, and my credit card bill are paid, I'll often have no money left over. None for food, none to help my dad with the payments of my brand new car, none to use to help pay back C's mom.
I've never had no money. We are making a late utilities payment because we have to wait for our paychecks to get into our accounts on Friday. It's...odd and unsettling, frightening, and exhilarating all at once. All is not totally lost, as I keep reminding myself when I get short of breath. We should find out this week if C's getting a new job, and I have a sort of temporary part-time gig lined up that will just be able to cover any extra costs I have in regards to car payments, food, and paying back C's mom, enough that I will feel secure again. But it's taking so much time to get the ball rolling with both of those opportunities that I fear we'll be struggling even more before the skies clear. At least there is a tangible hope that they will clear.
And honestly...I haven't been as clear-headed and content as I am currently, in a long, long time.
Also, this band is my new favorite. Ever.