Plurisy

Oct 19, 2005 15:29

I believe my bad case of wanderlust has settled in my chest. It has now become relocationlust and is threatening my already compromised lungs ( Read more... )

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bix02138 October 19 2005, 20:55:15 UTC
dreaming and planning can sometimes salve the savage breast.

do you know what you have to do in order to make it (the relocation) happen? and are there short-term stop-gaps, to feed your (-)lust? can you wander before you repot?

what are the steps in this journey?

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ink_ling October 19 2005, 21:57:05 UTC
Sage advice; I can already smell it in my chesthairdiamond. :)

I have been planning on applying for graduate programs in cultural studies on the West Coast. I have put that off for another year because 1) after a recent break-up, I need to take some time to get personal directions on track without running myself ragged with preps and moves and 2) I am always worried about the financial straits of academia.

Still, I think I'll take this route and maybe construct a back-up plan because -- come that hell or high water -- I want to be out of here in at most two years.

I can wander a bit, but it would be better to save for the bigger move, I guess.

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f8n_begorra October 19 2005, 21:07:33 UTC
I can only hope that the quiet fog and tall trees of Northern California will be your unction. But I'm being selfish...

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ink_ling October 19 2005, 22:43:58 UTC
Especially since I am with you on your reaction to that country, Robbie and Fish's space, I think: I felt peaceful and quirky at once, immediately. The feeling spread from their place to all the country around, in my mind.

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jawnbc October 19 2005, 21:45:49 UTC
You don't feel that way at all. You just needed to use the word unction.

why not somethin' water-based? Lugubrious even?

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ink_ling October 19 2005, 22:49:33 UTC
I'd be more inclined to say Jack Daniels first, but I've found that label was all I needed to read to learn how to lose friends and humiliate people -- not at all like the book all the other people are reading.

You know? The truth is I think I'm being a baby about this. Every step I've made (like the ones you mention yourself above) towards moving has immediately made me fearful of the financial risk I am taking. Then I stop. And then I pine -- deeply and abstractly. It's a catch-22.

I've got to conquer the fears and stick to a plan, as you say. Now, would be a good time to start planning and begin steps.

By the way, I am so happy for your up-coming move. The excitement shows so clearly in so many of your posts and that is a really pleasing thing to see. :)

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jawnbc October 19 2005, 21:44:33 UTC
I've always found being impulsive and irreponsible is the fastest way to relocate. The dust eventually settles, and you get to combine the whirlwind of being fresh meat with the agita of OMFG what was I thinking?.

And studies have proven that distracted, emotionally unavailable (as in stressed out) men are hawter. Just ask the nearest internally homophobic "str8 acting" fellater near you!

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ink_ling October 19 2005, 22:53:52 UTC
Well, I do need to plan quite a bit financially and, as a Virgo, I've always been a kind of slower burn man -- sort of like Granny's electric lap rug.

Still, I think I need to take your advice so that it'll put some fire under my ass and get me shoved off square one. And being the new Mess-of-a-Queer in town doesn't sound so bad after all! :)

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f8n_begorra October 19 2005, 23:22:18 UTC
Internalizing homophobia is so much fun in a hot tub full of bears

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jawnbc October 19 2005, 23:24:52 UTC
yeah, slipping in, watching their face freeze, feeling the twitch, the grip, the need. All the while pretending you're not doing nuthing.

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bachelor_farmer October 20 2005, 01:27:57 UTC
I recommend lots of maps and planning a different future life at least weekly.


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ink_ling October 20 2005, 20:55:29 UTC
Ooo! I like this advice! How did you know I love map-gazing?!

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