you know what the telltale sign is to a relationship that's going nowhere but down, fast?....dinner and/or a movie, over and over and over again...
'hey what did you wanna do tonight'
'i dont know, wanna go to blockbuster and see what they got for movies?'
'uh sure'
i am convinced through my experiences in the past and watching other peoples experiences that if you stick to seeing each other everyday, and switching houses each night to which one you are gonna watch the movie at is a sad sad thing to do...i mean, what are you learning from all of this???...its you two just sitting there in silence, watching a fucking movie...wow...holy shit...write me a fucking book about it...i mean seriously...what kind of communication can be taken and given fucking sprawled out on the couch for the 14th night in a row??...
'pass me the popcorn...............um.................baby'
how fucking romantic is that?!?!...i swear to god...i remember those days...and i will kill myself before that shit ever happens again...laying down dormant night after night in a pitch black room that's only squint of light is from the flickering of a 19" tv...fuck that, you can leave that shit for the motherfucking birds...
my next girlfriend is going to have something to say...shes going to interrupt me all the time...make fun of me...shoot me down...tell me how ugly i am, and shes gonna make fun of all my faults...not in a mean and insensitive way...but in a, hey moron, shut the fuck up and come over here and kiss me sort of way...i know im not perfect...i tell myself all the time that i am in my self cocky way...and that's what turns off people, people dont understand the sarcasm behind pretty much everything i say...and that's how i filter out the morons who i dont want to waste my time with...if you cant understand the way i am and the way i act as a person, then youre better off buying a fucking hamster...cause im sure as shit not going to keep you company...that's one of the big things with me...i hate waiting for people in every sense of the word, i hate to be held back period...im not going to stand more than 4 minutes with being with someone who answers every question of mine with one word answers and im definitely not going to be with someone who refuses to come up with suggestions for worthwhile things to add to our relationship...its not going to be one sided at all...i want a challenge...someone who is going to make every effort to make me be exactly how i am supposed to be and vice versa
if there is a trap when you get into a relationship...its neglecting your friends...usually...there is give and take, and what you do is give up your friends, to spend every waking moment with the person youre with...which is evidently wrong 100% the way around...i did that once...and thankfully they were still there second time around...i think its a high school thing, better yet...a first love thing...or if love is what you want to call it...i dont think ive ever truly been in love...i might have said it, but after awhile...after everyone of those movies...it gets old...where saying i love you is probably as common as saying, oh, i dont know, cheese sandwich*....and its true...its so fucking true...everything is so true...true motherfucking blue...i guess this is my moment of clarity finally being documented for the first time...thank you for listening
*Jon Favreau - 'Love & Sex'
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for those who came to see the rude version of me with my thoughtful insight into how lame people are...i will be back tomorrow...sorry for being somewhat serious...
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Coldplay - The Scientist
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Come up to meet ya, tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are,
I had to find you, tell you I need ya,
And tell you I set you apart,
Tell me your secrets, and nurse me your questions,
Oh lets go back to the start,
Running in circles, coming in tails,
Heads on a science apart,
Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part,
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard,
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures,
Pulling the puzzles apart,
Questions of science, science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart,
And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me,
Oh and I rush to the start,
Running in circles, chasing tails,
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part,
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard,
I'm going back to the start
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