postin'
Feel like I want to write something, but I can't organize my head enough. There's the same bitterness I've been dealing with over the last couple years, but now it's wrapped around and swirling with the glow of my new relationship.
He talks about me moving in, and is only half kidding. I practically live here already. I worry that I've just transplanted all the comfort of my previous 3 year relationship onto my new one, but this is a different sort of comfort. This sort of feels like I think a relationship is supposed to. Of course, that could be because the shine hasn't wore off yet.
But I feel at home. i can fart in front of him, I can talk about my flaws, I'm still swallowing them pretty hard though- I'm not an easy creature to live with, and, frankly, since i want to change that about myself, swallowing stuff, or managing it better are things that I can't really be sad about doing.
Still a little scattered, want to analyze the hell out of my relationship, but also just want to enjoy it.
I hope it lives up to it's promise, the potential I feel in it.
He talks about me moving in, and is only half kidding. I practically live here already. I worry that I've just transplanted all the comfort of my previous 3 year relationship onto my new one, but this is a different sort of comfort. This sort of feels like I think a relationship is supposed to. Of course, that could be because the shine hasn't wore off yet.
But I feel at home. i can fart in front of him, I can talk about my flaws, I'm still swallowing them pretty hard though- I'm not an easy creature to live with, and, frankly, since i want to change that about myself, swallowing stuff, or managing it better are things that I can't really be sad about doing.
Still a little scattered, want to analyze the hell out of my relationship, but also just want to enjoy it.
I hope it lives up to it's promise, the potential I feel in it.