Hundredsixteen
Why if you havent forgive me or still mad at me, why those moments? Why? I came with an intention to make things right. And i went home still with a heavy heart, nothing resolved just more thoughts and emotions running through me in vain. What happened to what we felt while in the darkness of your room? Or at least why did you when you knew it would mean that much to me? Because i know fr myself it wasnt just fr the thrill of it.
If its space you need, ill give it to you. Just dont leave me hanging. I knw its my mistake. I knw i screwed things up. I went over to your place, and felt completely like a stupid girl outside your door crying cause i am at a point of no return. I thought if you could see hw genuinely sorry and regretful i am of what i have done and said, your heart would lighten up abit and maybe things would be better. You were right about your post on fb. I am stupid for making such a stupid act of doing smth behind your back. I have mo excuse fpr that but just this. I felt stupid cause i couldnt stop thinking of you and i wanted to talk to someone to distract me. I knw he isnt the best choice. And i shouldnt have thought bout it either. Youre having so much fun with your friends and im stuck here thinking of you and feeling completely guilty. Maybe this is the reality i have to accept that perhaps, my hands wony be filled with yours again. And my lips would only feel the air. And my eyes would only be the reflect of a glass and nothing else. All this while i have always failed you. And im sorry for all the trouble and heartbreaks ive put you through,
The last images of you in me are those of your eyes and everything youve done for me. And how stupid i am to thrash them away. Happy 16 months in advance love. <3,
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