So I am a emotionally unstable and a guy...big deal....
Yeah for those of you that read my last confident entry about I-house. Well...just replace the words I-House with sorority and you know where I am living next semester.
It was an emotional roller coaster today and I dont know why.
Too much warmth and sunshine?
Or maybe it is the fact the I am unstable and that I need pills to stabilize my emtions.
Apparently I am a man...I have low feminine hormones (amenorrhea it is called, yeah sounds like an STD...good)which means I have to take hormones. And since I stopped taking hormones, I am an emoitonal roller coaster (forgive the repetitive allusions, fatigue). I am calm and then today I broke down and cried for a couple of hours. Then I was calm again. Then I was really happy.
But behind the all the crying came a decsion: I am doing the sorority. Two things changed. One: one of the girls in my pledge class who I really like asked me to be her roommate, and last week I got asked by another girl who I really like to be her roommate. Second: I found out I house is 60 to 70 percent graduate students. Cool maybe,but my worry is graduate students are wrapped up in graduate studies. So that scared me a bit. I also came to the realization (withthe help of my roommate Primor) that if I dont try out the sorority, I will always be asking myself what it would have been like; and since you can't go back to a sorority once you've backed out, I figure it is worth a try. If I dont like it, I can join I-House spring semester (they accept people semesterly as well...totally cool!) Or just live at I-houe my senior year (I am going abroad junior year fo sho)
I feel good about everything now ( think the freddo I got from Peet's coffe helped too, its like a frappucino only stronger and on points, how much better could it get?)
Three more weeks, three more essays, three more mid-terms, somehow I feel God needs to be a part of this time span...I will pray for optimism then...good night you all and hopefull see you in the summer...
It was an emotional roller coaster today and I dont know why.
Too much warmth and sunshine?
Or maybe it is the fact the I am unstable and that I need pills to stabilize my emtions.
Apparently I am a man...I have low feminine hormones (amenorrhea it is called, yeah sounds like an STD...good)which means I have to take hormones. And since I stopped taking hormones, I am an emoitonal roller coaster (forgive the repetitive allusions, fatigue). I am calm and then today I broke down and cried for a couple of hours. Then I was calm again. Then I was really happy.
But behind the all the crying came a decsion: I am doing the sorority. Two things changed. One: one of the girls in my pledge class who I really like asked me to be her roommate, and last week I got asked by another girl who I really like to be her roommate. Second: I found out I house is 60 to 70 percent graduate students. Cool maybe,but my worry is graduate students are wrapped up in graduate studies. So that scared me a bit. I also came to the realization (withthe help of my roommate Primor) that if I dont try out the sorority, I will always be asking myself what it would have been like; and since you can't go back to a sorority once you've backed out, I figure it is worth a try. If I dont like it, I can join I-House spring semester (they accept people semesterly as well...totally cool!) Or just live at I-houe my senior year (I am going abroad junior year fo sho)
I feel good about everything now ( think the freddo I got from Peet's coffe helped too, its like a frappucino only stronger and on points, how much better could it get?)
Three more weeks, three more essays, three more mid-terms, somehow I feel God needs to be a part of this time span...I will pray for optimism then...good night you all and hopefull see you in the summer...