You wasted life why wouldn't you waste death?
So I haven't fallen off the face of the earth. I've just been too lazy to log in to lj. I can log in everywhere else, but my lj password is long and I'm lazy. Yes, too lazy to type a single password, but not a post? Well, that too. I have been too lazy to post here but not on myspace - not that I'm blogging on myspace that much. Myspace blogs are reserved for rubbish and silliness. LJ blogs are for deep, insightful thoughts and rants. Haven't had too many of those lately.
Still nothing on the job search. I've been on a ton of interviews and nothing. Nada. Zip. Zilch. I've been to two temp agencies and I'm still working at the same crap job I've been at for almost 7 years. So, I had an epiphany one night last month before my birthday. I decided that I would work toward going back to college and becoming a counselor. I don't have the discipline, patience, or intelligence to become a clinical psychologist, but I could be a counselor, maybe a grief counselor. I don't know. I started all my financial aid paperwork and started to apply for admissions to UK when I got my financial aid report back that stated I wouldn't receive a pell grant because I already have a bachelor's degree and I was going to be working toward a second bachelor's degree. So WHY don't they tell you that when you check that little box on the application? I'm poor and I need financial assistance to get me through school. I'm sorry that the first time around, I was lost on my path through life and chose the wrong major. Why should I be punished now after finally receiving my degree? Damn it, I was screwed out of free money the first time around and am still in debt from my loans. I deserve free money this time! And I can't justify taking out more loans and plunging further into debt when I've paid a little more than half of my loans off in the last 6 years.
So I was about to give up when my boss's wife suggested that I just go straight to grad school and get my master's in social work. I didn't even think about that! I thought that since my undergrad degree was telecommunications, I wouldn't be able to go to grad school. And who knows? I may not be able to. I have to look into it and find out the requirements and everything. I've probably already missed the deadline to apply to grad school for fall admission, but that doesn't mean I'm gonna give up. Maybe I'll need to take some classes in order to prepare myself for grad school. I don't know. I just know what I want to do....for now anyhow. That's what is so scary about the thought of going back to school. I'd hate to get into it and realize that it's NOT what I want to do and just be back at square one again.
I have an interview tomorrow morning at an office. I'm not getting any high hopes and if I do get the job, it's temporary to permanent. So that means I'll probably try to keep my current crap job and work nights. That way I'll be able to save money for when I do move because right now, I gots nothin. No roommates, no apartment/house, no furniture, no computer, no dishes, and no money to start out on my own with. I've been trying to pay down my credit card, plus the whole $747 to fix my car recently.
Still nothing on the job search. I've been on a ton of interviews and nothing. Nada. Zip. Zilch. I've been to two temp agencies and I'm still working at the same crap job I've been at for almost 7 years. So, I had an epiphany one night last month before my birthday. I decided that I would work toward going back to college and becoming a counselor. I don't have the discipline, patience, or intelligence to become a clinical psychologist, but I could be a counselor, maybe a grief counselor. I don't know. I started all my financial aid paperwork and started to apply for admissions to UK when I got my financial aid report back that stated I wouldn't receive a pell grant because I already have a bachelor's degree and I was going to be working toward a second bachelor's degree. So WHY don't they tell you that when you check that little box on the application? I'm poor and I need financial assistance to get me through school. I'm sorry that the first time around, I was lost on my path through life and chose the wrong major. Why should I be punished now after finally receiving my degree? Damn it, I was screwed out of free money the first time around and am still in debt from my loans. I deserve free money this time! And I can't justify taking out more loans and plunging further into debt when I've paid a little more than half of my loans off in the last 6 years.
So I was about to give up when my boss's wife suggested that I just go straight to grad school and get my master's in social work. I didn't even think about that! I thought that since my undergrad degree was telecommunications, I wouldn't be able to go to grad school. And who knows? I may not be able to. I have to look into it and find out the requirements and everything. I've probably already missed the deadline to apply to grad school for fall admission, but that doesn't mean I'm gonna give up. Maybe I'll need to take some classes in order to prepare myself for grad school. I don't know. I just know what I want to do....for now anyhow. That's what is so scary about the thought of going back to school. I'd hate to get into it and realize that it's NOT what I want to do and just be back at square one again.
I have an interview tomorrow morning at an office. I'm not getting any high hopes and if I do get the job, it's temporary to permanent. So that means I'll probably try to keep my current crap job and work nights. That way I'll be able to save money for when I do move because right now, I gots nothin. No roommates, no apartment/house, no furniture, no computer, no dishes, and no money to start out on my own with. I've been trying to pay down my credit card, plus the whole $747 to fix my car recently.