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[infiniteviking]

Another thing I haven't mentioned here is a year-long battle with depression. More than that now, actually. The anxiety is hereditary and I manage it by staying fact-based about complex issues, but the depression was pastede on yey and I did not need that on top of everything else thanks very much. It took all year to find the right medication to

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[sl_walker]

It's been a year almost to the day when I started antidepressants myself, so I hear you. And yeah, with the seemingly sourceless grief. Some days I feel like a hole's been blown in me, if that's the kind you've been fighting with? Like there's ragged edges and emptiness. What probiotics are you taking, if you don't mind my asking?

And I'm here, anytime. <3 I'm so sorry things have been rough like this for you.

[infiniteviking]

*hugs*!!! Mine is similar, yeah. Tossup, sometimes, whether I'm in the ragged-edges-and-emptiness space or am it.

Not at all -- the probiotic is VSL-3, which comes in powder packets. It's expensive and icky, but was the only one of the recommended ones that worked, and it worked like a dream. I just have to actually take the packets now instead of going EWWWW and avoiding them. What with the way things have been lately, the EWWWW is often just one thing too many.

I'm glad you're here. I am too, anytime, and I hope your meds work out well for you too. Wish I had enough off days this year to suggest another writing retreat. Someday?

[sl_walker]

They did okay by me for awhile there, but right now I'm on the floor for reasons I can't fathom. But at the same time suffering a flareup of the RA and the IBD, so I wonder if that's not related to the depression. <3 Thanks for the tip! I'd love to get away again sometime. I went camping with some RP friends and my dog, but we were only about two hours away from here, though we did drift so far as Niagara Falls at one point.

But heck, yeah, someday. Absolutely. I'd love to go back to South Bristol when the new bridge is done; it's not the swing bridge, but it's still better than the travesty they'd been proposing.

Other'n mutual depression, how have things been? The art on your art blog is amazing.

[infiniteviking]

I went through about five different ones before finding one that worked and didn't stop working for some unknown reason. It's a rough process, but absolutely worth it. And yeah, wouldn't be surprised if the IBD especially is related to it. Stress/anxiety/depression do get you right there, especially the unrelenting kind. They feed into each other.

I went to Niagara once as a kid -- it was astounding! Mostly, I think I'd like to go places someday purely to find a corner, sit down, and draw them.

Thank you!<3 Haven't had art or fic energy for a while, and am just about burning out of RP again; I'd picked up Bel Thorne after falling headfirst into the Vorkosiverse last fall. Reading helped a lot when I was really low. There was an excellent Dreamwidth game with a premise perfect for Bel, but it grew past my capacity to handle (because it's a great game). I feel I'll have had a characterization level-up when I write again

[sl_walker]

Since talking to you, I think I just put together the problem: I took antibiotics for a UTI a few weeks ago. o.O I hadn't even thought of that, but that could explain where all this is coming from after a relatively stable period there

[infiniteviking]

AHA! Yeah, that'd do it. Antibiotics are absolutely necessary sometimes, and can lead straight to an IBD or IBS flare. Get ye some probiotics stat!

Who've you been playing? And yeah, haven't had commenting energy but have been seeing your Due South stuff and wow! :D The good thing about art + writing is that you can often do one while your brain is tied up downloading the upgrade for the other one. I had both doing the hourglass thing this year, but there are positive signs that they're almost there.

I do use f.lux, yep! It's good. The advantage of the glasses is that unlike a device-specific fix, I can spend the rest of the evening not having to worry about every other device or light in the area; they're all preemptively taken care of.

Just seeing your name makes me smile. Be there, be you, take care of yourself.<3

[sl_walker]

Yeah, I just ordered some. XD You gave me the right trail, so thanks! I was playing SPN's Castiel for about two and a half years (and I still play him off and on now), which was good since I was pretty hopeless for actual writing of prose there, and RP exercises more improv than prose does.

I get it. Some days, just engaging with people a bit empties my tank. <3 Thanks, though. I try to draw on days I can't even think to, just to do something, though I don't always succeed.

I'm glad the glasses are working. LOL! I might have to give those a go at some point myself. And I am so happy to see you, too. ^^; I shall indeed be here, me and I am trying to do the last one too.