burnt popcorn
I haven't written in this thing lately, but i feel the need to at this moment. I've had quite an eventful day. fate dealt me some strange cards. i was sitting on the couch this afternoon, and some chick called. Turns out it was jessie dauro, the girl i was in love with 2 years after she left me for the airforce. We spent the afternoon together after years of being apart. when i left she gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek, and i cried all the way home because i felt closure, like i was finally over her. As i was driving home, clay asked me if i was going to be with jessie or jessie. i told him that i was in love with jessie, MY jessie, the blue eyed kitty angel. As soon as I got home, she decided to break up with me. Funny how things work out, huh? She broke up with me in the middle of making cookies. The cookies came out horrible, i didn't feel like eating them. I wanted to have tea with clay tonight but my mom has forbade me from seeing him. Ya know, so much has happened to me in my 20 years that i dont think anything could shake me anymore. Its like duh, more shit, as if i wasn't expecting it. i'm enjoying my school work however. I was excited about this weekend too, but i guess i have a free one now. Ug, i'm aparently sick too, I keep puking, i've been sick since i got in the car with jessie lee. Im just gonna make some tea, eat some sleeping pills and see what tommorow holds. One day i stood up on a porch after this guy held a knife to my throat. I yelled at the moon, 'go ahead, try to knock me down! YOU WILL NEVER WIN!' I've learned to stand and keep going when my world has fallen apart. The sun will rise again.