Our Hearts are received
hello.
what's new you ask? well, I had my big Practical on the Skeletal Muscle system in the Anatomy Lab on Wedsnday (I think I failed), I finished Volume 1 of 1001 Arabian Nights, and am now reading "Kull: Exile Of Atlantis." it's pretty good. the first story is pretty surreal and creepy.
I've been kind of sad and gloomy lately. what happened to life? it used to meaningful and fun. now, there's nothing except an overwhelming feeling of dread. did I miss the train?? did the city burn down while I was sleeping? maybe. I definitely missed something, and there's part of me that is missing. there has always been this feeling of being incomplete- except once, for a time, but that's all gone.
sometimes, I wonder what it means, to be whole, to be complete. does that mean there's something wrong with me because I feel this way. I don't really think so, but maybe there is. more than a few people in my life have thought so. Maybe all these things aren't real. I certainly feel real, but these thoughts don't.
I'd still be waiting if all this was fading, it is so true... I just want to feel okay. I hope things will change some day.
what's new you ask? well, I had my big Practical on the Skeletal Muscle system in the Anatomy Lab on Wedsnday (I think I failed), I finished Volume 1 of 1001 Arabian Nights, and am now reading "Kull: Exile Of Atlantis." it's pretty good. the first story is pretty surreal and creepy.
I've been kind of sad and gloomy lately. what happened to life? it used to meaningful and fun. now, there's nothing except an overwhelming feeling of dread. did I miss the train?? did the city burn down while I was sleeping? maybe. I definitely missed something, and there's part of me that is missing. there has always been this feeling of being incomplete- except once, for a time, but that's all gone.
sometimes, I wonder what it means, to be whole, to be complete. does that mean there's something wrong with me because I feel this way. I don't really think so, but maybe there is. more than a few people in my life have thought so. Maybe all these things aren't real. I certainly feel real, but these thoughts don't.
I'd still be waiting if all this was fading, it is so true... I just want to feel okay. I hope things will change some day.