I can't live forever, so tell me is it now or never. I'm not gonna make up your mind.
here I am again, typing an entry. anyway, crazy shit happened. lots of crazy shit. I have alot to explain to myself and alot to wonder, but first on some of the things I've done lately:
I made a pie for the bakesale. a Mud Pie- with almost a whole can of fudge, whipped cream, and lots of caramel and chocolate sauce. it was delicious, except I did not use enough butter on the pan, so it got kind of stuck to the bottom. I brought back a little less than half from the bakesale, and I even bought a piece. it was so good. very, very sugary too. almost made me want to throw up. anyway, I pretty much ate most of it throughout the rest of the weekend, cause I just had the last piece 20 minutes ago watching Family Guy.
On Wedsnday, I finished Gulliver's Travels, and started reading Dracula. so far, I'm on the 2nd page or so. hehe.. it's alright, not as good as Gulliver's Travels, but... just okay. honestly, I wouldn't single it out for any reason: the writing is mediocre, detail is a bit sparse at this point, and it lacks an in-depth rendering of characters- which are supposedly fairly static- to give a feeling of suspense. but still, I'm going to read it, and decide about it when I'm done. supposedly, there's alot of sexual double entendres in the book, with vampires, or the people being attacked by the vampires exclusively.
I'm gonna have to write a report on Gulliver's Travels starting tomorrow. I also need to do my math homework reeeally badly, cause I only need two credits, and I do not want to fail this credit, since it is the easiest.
here's the highlight of my weekend: I was bored Saturday, and kinda frustrated at my parents ordering me around and crap. I was in the middle of vacuuming when my dad made me stop so he could eat. I got to eating myself and watching The Pursuit of Happyness during that period. I didn't finish it, because Vanessa called, and I was able to convince my dad- just barely- to take me to the mall to hang out with Vanessa and Brooke. I got there around 5:50, about half an hour late, but still got there.
we walked around for a while, and then met up with Brooke. by then, Vanessa and Brooke were talking about dolling me up, to make me look emo. that whole night was alot of fun. Vanessa fucking spit on someone's head from the railing... fuck that was terrible. that is why I don't like walking down there. I can't believe she did that!! anyway, some time after that, we were outside just talking and sitting down, and after 20 minutes of that, we met up with Brooke's mom and I went back to her house. after meeting her dad, they pretty much immediately set out working on me. to note, her dad is nice, but he was a bit... ambiguous. first, he said some reassuring things, and then burst in when I was getting my hair straightened to tell me that "if I stick anything in his daughter, he'll take it off," and did that all throughout the evening. all in all, he was alright, though.
First, they fussed over what to do with me, and eventually got to brushing my hair, and warming a straightener. then, Brooke straightened my hair, while Vanessa brushed, and I got touched by the straightener a couple times, but I didn't get seriously burned. I was very hesitant, however, as I do have a fear of getting burned in sensitive areas.. like my face, near my eyes, and my ear. I was also very very jumpy when Vanessa was putting eyeliner on me, but I got used to all of that with a bit of time. all in all, I was very nervous and anxious throughout the whole time. and having Brooke's little brother and dad come in and make fun of me and watch didn't help. the straighener (getting burned) or getting my eye poked out by an eyeliner thingy didn't help either. what exasperated it further, were Vanessa's and Brooke's stealthy whispers, which didn't really catch me off gaurd- I knew they would plan something- but I didn't think anything of it. but then after I looked pretty and put on really tight pants and a tight shirt, they paraded me around and showed me off. they had lots of fun telling me I have a cute butt (and smacking it), and having Brooke practice sex positions on me since I just looked so damn sexy. there was one part where Vanessa tried to take my pants off, but I wouldn't let her. not only was I just to nervous to get it up, but I also hadn't trimmed at all. I think my favourite part of the night was when Brooke got on top of me and practiced. that was pretty fun. Vanessa said she would have raped me right there, but she had a date the next day with a guy she really liked. then they had me sit in between them and they had fun whispering about me and doing things like tickling my tummy, biting my neck (which hurt like hell), and kissing me on the cheek simultaneously, which I found to be unexpected. then there was that one part where Brooke held me down by the neck??? I don't know, I remember sticking my finger down her cleavage, though, cause it was funny. hahaha!! and then, I had to change back, and they were dissappointed.
Vanessa left at 10, and I hung around for alot longer talking to Brooke. she related to me this story about how she saw this one extremely hot guy (she said he was the hottest guy she's ever seen) at the mall and followed him around for a while. she said she was searching for this guy on Myspace forever, and found a guy who works at Lenscrafter's who she thought was him (he's shorter than me.. that's terrible!), but it turns out the guy was Tim Couch!! hahahaha! Anyway, I showed her his myspace and she sent him an add and spent the rest of the night, until 11:50 talking to me about how hot she thinks he is and going over his pictures and such. Jesus is she obsessed with him! it's a bit wierd, but it's also really cute. she had me send him a message, which I did earlier today, telling him to talk to her. I don't know if he's read it yet, but I did mention that she's nice and cute. at 12:50, I went outside to wait for my dad to pick me up. he got there at 12:15, and he got me without noticing my new hair. when we got home, he did see, and thought it was terrible. lol! I actually kind of liked it, but mostly because it was different. I want to show up at school one day looking emo like that. hehe..
while I was up, I read articles online and took pictures, cause I promised Vanessa and Brooke I would take the pictures and put them on myspace, which I guess I'll do tomorrow or some other time this week. oh! Brooke's house is so messy, it's fucking crazy. I thought I was disorganized, and I have to admit, I like my house alot better. also, her dad was nice enough to allow me to stay the night, and even drive his spare car home if I didn't have a ride. if I stayed the night, I could have gone fishing the next morning, but I just wanted to get home. lol.
the next morning, my mom noticed my hair and that I was wearing eyeliner when I got breakfast. my dad told me to change it back, and when I was showering, I kind of wanted it to stay. later on, I finished vacuuming and mopping, and then went to an old person party where my dad was playing. there was one cute girl there, and another fat one. the cute one looked like she was 13, though, and... well, that's to young. lol. anyway, now I'm listening to the music I downloaded a couple weeks ago. most of it is Matt Pond PA, Minus The Bear, Big Bad Voodoo Daddy, and Copeland. and I'm also going to check up on all the artists on my playlist to see if any of them have any new albums.
yeah. anything else I have to say that has been on my mind, I'll talk about in my next entry. some of them are big, and some are small. all are pressing on me like a thorn, though...
good night.
I made a pie for the bakesale. a Mud Pie- with almost a whole can of fudge, whipped cream, and lots of caramel and chocolate sauce. it was delicious, except I did not use enough butter on the pan, so it got kind of stuck to the bottom. I brought back a little less than half from the bakesale, and I even bought a piece. it was so good. very, very sugary too. almost made me want to throw up. anyway, I pretty much ate most of it throughout the rest of the weekend, cause I just had the last piece 20 minutes ago watching Family Guy.
On Wedsnday, I finished Gulliver's Travels, and started reading Dracula. so far, I'm on the 2nd page or so. hehe.. it's alright, not as good as Gulliver's Travels, but... just okay. honestly, I wouldn't single it out for any reason: the writing is mediocre, detail is a bit sparse at this point, and it lacks an in-depth rendering of characters- which are supposedly fairly static- to give a feeling of suspense. but still, I'm going to read it, and decide about it when I'm done. supposedly, there's alot of sexual double entendres in the book, with vampires, or the people being attacked by the vampires exclusively.
I'm gonna have to write a report on Gulliver's Travels starting tomorrow. I also need to do my math homework reeeally badly, cause I only need two credits, and I do not want to fail this credit, since it is the easiest.
here's the highlight of my weekend: I was bored Saturday, and kinda frustrated at my parents ordering me around and crap. I was in the middle of vacuuming when my dad made me stop so he could eat. I got to eating myself and watching The Pursuit of Happyness during that period. I didn't finish it, because Vanessa called, and I was able to convince my dad- just barely- to take me to the mall to hang out with Vanessa and Brooke. I got there around 5:50, about half an hour late, but still got there.
we walked around for a while, and then met up with Brooke. by then, Vanessa and Brooke were talking about dolling me up, to make me look emo. that whole night was alot of fun. Vanessa fucking spit on someone's head from the railing... fuck that was terrible. that is why I don't like walking down there. I can't believe she did that!! anyway, some time after that, we were outside just talking and sitting down, and after 20 minutes of that, we met up with Brooke's mom and I went back to her house. after meeting her dad, they pretty much immediately set out working on me. to note, her dad is nice, but he was a bit... ambiguous. first, he said some reassuring things, and then burst in when I was getting my hair straightened to tell me that "if I stick anything in his daughter, he'll take it off," and did that all throughout the evening. all in all, he was alright, though.
First, they fussed over what to do with me, and eventually got to brushing my hair, and warming a straightener. then, Brooke straightened my hair, while Vanessa brushed, and I got touched by the straightener a couple times, but I didn't get seriously burned. I was very hesitant, however, as I do have a fear of getting burned in sensitive areas.. like my face, near my eyes, and my ear. I was also very very jumpy when Vanessa was putting eyeliner on me, but I got used to all of that with a bit of time. all in all, I was very nervous and anxious throughout the whole time. and having Brooke's little brother and dad come in and make fun of me and watch didn't help. the straighener (getting burned) or getting my eye poked out by an eyeliner thingy didn't help either. what exasperated it further, were Vanessa's and Brooke's stealthy whispers, which didn't really catch me off gaurd- I knew they would plan something- but I didn't think anything of it. but then after I looked pretty and put on really tight pants and a tight shirt, they paraded me around and showed me off. they had lots of fun telling me I have a cute butt (and smacking it), and having Brooke practice sex positions on me since I just looked so damn sexy. there was one part where Vanessa tried to take my pants off, but I wouldn't let her. not only was I just to nervous to get it up, but I also hadn't trimmed at all. I think my favourite part of the night was when Brooke got on top of me and practiced. that was pretty fun. Vanessa said she would have raped me right there, but she had a date the next day with a guy she really liked. then they had me sit in between them and they had fun whispering about me and doing things like tickling my tummy, biting my neck (which hurt like hell), and kissing me on the cheek simultaneously, which I found to be unexpected. then there was that one part where Brooke held me down by the neck??? I don't know, I remember sticking my finger down her cleavage, though, cause it was funny. hahaha!! and then, I had to change back, and they were dissappointed.
Vanessa left at 10, and I hung around for alot longer talking to Brooke. she related to me this story about how she saw this one extremely hot guy (she said he was the hottest guy she's ever seen) at the mall and followed him around for a while. she said she was searching for this guy on Myspace forever, and found a guy who works at Lenscrafter's who she thought was him (he's shorter than me.. that's terrible!), but it turns out the guy was Tim Couch!! hahahaha! Anyway, I showed her his myspace and she sent him an add and spent the rest of the night, until 11:50 talking to me about how hot she thinks he is and going over his pictures and such. Jesus is she obsessed with him! it's a bit wierd, but it's also really cute. she had me send him a message, which I did earlier today, telling him to talk to her. I don't know if he's read it yet, but I did mention that she's nice and cute. at 12:50, I went outside to wait for my dad to pick me up. he got there at 12:15, and he got me without noticing my new hair. when we got home, he did see, and thought it was terrible. lol! I actually kind of liked it, but mostly because it was different. I want to show up at school one day looking emo like that. hehe..
while I was up, I read articles online and took pictures, cause I promised Vanessa and Brooke I would take the pictures and put them on myspace, which I guess I'll do tomorrow or some other time this week. oh! Brooke's house is so messy, it's fucking crazy. I thought I was disorganized, and I have to admit, I like my house alot better. also, her dad was nice enough to allow me to stay the night, and even drive his spare car home if I didn't have a ride. if I stayed the night, I could have gone fishing the next morning, but I just wanted to get home. lol.
the next morning, my mom noticed my hair and that I was wearing eyeliner when I got breakfast. my dad told me to change it back, and when I was showering, I kind of wanted it to stay. later on, I finished vacuuming and mopping, and then went to an old person party where my dad was playing. there was one cute girl there, and another fat one. the cute one looked like she was 13, though, and... well, that's to young. lol. anyway, now I'm listening to the music I downloaded a couple weeks ago. most of it is Matt Pond PA, Minus The Bear, Big Bad Voodoo Daddy, and Copeland. and I'm also going to check up on all the artists on my playlist to see if any of them have any new albums.
yeah. anything else I have to say that has been on my mind, I'll talk about in my next entry. some of them are big, and some are small. all are pressing on me like a thorn, though...
good night.