why won't someone save me? isn't that what's supposed to happen?

[indypistol]

I don't feel like existing today.

I didn't go to work today because I was in so much pain. I'm expecting a shit-storm for it.

I'm tired of not doing anything I want.

Is that selfish?

I just want to go to school to be a vet tech or get my bachelor of arts so I can become an Editor.

Why won't life let me? Why do so many people get to go to school and do what they want, but I can't? Why does my mom get to talk about going back to school while I'm struggling to hold everything together?

I just want to see my best friend and hang out, but she lives too far away.

I want to go travelling, but I can't.

I want to be happy and not always frustrated and depressed.

But I can't. So for today, I'm just going to stop existing.