My dearest best friend.
Ekim
I really miss you....I mean I really really do miss you. I know your probably sick of me saying that.. But you inspire so much in me. You have tough me more about how to find myself and my own path. You have guided me through rough winding roads... and help me scale mountains. Because of you I feel better about my life choices... I am healthier mentaly and physically. Even through all of what you have done for me.... I can't still but help a part of my soul is missing... Maybe soul isn't quite the word I am looking for.... When you first left... my world felt empty and incomplete. But I knew you would thrive and be happy in Seattle and not here. Time has past since then, and vist's back and forth have transpired and even to the extent of me living out there with you. I loved every minute of it. I felt happy... I felt peace.... I felt healthier for the first time in what seems like years. But I couldn't help but feel that I needed to leave back for here..... This place that I promised myself I wouldn't come back to..unless I visted. Something called out for me to come back. I didn't want me to become a burden on your shoulders. I refused. So I did what I needed to do. I am glad I did. I learned a lot more now with in the last 2 months that made me realise... I do miss you, I miss everyone out there and I do miss Seattle more and more every day. But since I have been back here and finding myself stripped and back to square one.... I have gain more pride, diginity, strength and direction. I can't thank you enough for what you have done for me.... But maybe one fine day I will.
I really miss you....I mean I really really do miss you. I know your probably sick of me saying that.. But you inspire so much in me. You have tough me more about how to find myself and my own path. You have guided me through rough winding roads... and help me scale mountains. Because of you I feel better about my life choices... I am healthier mentaly and physically. Even through all of what you have done for me.... I can't still but help a part of my soul is missing... Maybe soul isn't quite the word I am looking for.... When you first left... my world felt empty and incomplete. But I knew you would thrive and be happy in Seattle and not here. Time has past since then, and vist's back and forth have transpired and even to the extent of me living out there with you. I loved every minute of it. I felt happy... I felt peace.... I felt healthier for the first time in what seems like years. But I couldn't help but feel that I needed to leave back for here..... This place that I promised myself I wouldn't come back to..unless I visted. Something called out for me to come back. I didn't want me to become a burden on your shoulders. I refused. So I did what I needed to do. I am glad I did. I learned a lot more now with in the last 2 months that made me realise... I do miss you, I miss everyone out there and I do miss Seattle more and more every day. But since I have been back here and finding myself stripped and back to square one.... I have gain more pride, diginity, strength and direction. I can't thank you enough for what you have done for me.... But maybe one fine day I will.