wow...it's been a while
Ok so I last wrote in this about 8 months ago, and everything in my life has changed...EVERYTHING!
So I moved to Snowmass Village Colorado (right by Aspen) right after I graduated last June to be with Bruce who I thought was the love of my life. Unfortunately I got there and it was hell, I don't even know how I lasted there as long as I did. He changed completely, and everything I hoped for in moving didn't happen. So after months and months of fighting, rarely getting along, and barely getting to see him because he had better things to do apparently, I finally had enough. Christmas was the beginning of the end, we didn't spend Christmas or New Years together, and this was sooooo hard being a million miles from my family and friends, I've never had a sadder holiday season as this one. Shortly after the new year I ended it but of course I took him back just so I could be hurt and disappointed one last time and break up again for good a week later. I'm still healing and its been months.
I did make some great friends there and I actually really grew to love it. I got an awesome job, went out with the girls on a regular basis and started to feel a little better about life. Unfortunately its impossible to actually live in Aspen because EVERYTHING is so damn expensive. Also Bruce started dating some new chick that luckily I never had to awkwardly meet and really didn't want to (its a small town). So when my lease was going to end in April I decided to move. I could have moved back home because I missed my family and friends more then you can imagine, but I liked Colorado and I knew that the job opportunities in Michigan were slim and none so instead I chose Denver. I had met a nice guy named James through some of my Aspen friends and he was nice enough to let me stay with him until I got my own place.
So now I'm in Denver, it's a beautiful city and I love it. I got an awesome job making more money, I just leased a new car (because my piece of shit was dying) and I'm about to move into my new apartment this weekend (I just have to get furniture). I'm even making some new girl friends, which is great because if I don't have someone to go out with I'll probably drink a bottle of wine at home and that's not always a good thing. Oh and I haven't smoked a cigarette in weeks, I honestly can't even remember my last one.
I just had my 24th birthday and I can't believe I'm this old already, and I can't believe where I am and what I'm doing. Less then a year ago (about the same time as my last journal entry) I saw myself in a completely different situation then I'm in now. When I was little I would wrap myself in my white sheets and pretend that it was a wedding dress, and I always thought I'd be married or have kids by now or at least close, at least have a potential husband. But I don't have those things, and I know I want them very much but you can't rush something like that or put a time line on it, it will happen when it's right and when it's with the right person, in the mean time I just have to be patient and hold on to the little bit of hope I have that there are actually decent guys out there still.
I still talk to Bruce, not very often and not for very long...just long enough to hurt but hopefully not cry.
So I moved to Snowmass Village Colorado (right by Aspen) right after I graduated last June to be with Bruce who I thought was the love of my life. Unfortunately I got there and it was hell, I don't even know how I lasted there as long as I did. He changed completely, and everything I hoped for in moving didn't happen. So after months and months of fighting, rarely getting along, and barely getting to see him because he had better things to do apparently, I finally had enough. Christmas was the beginning of the end, we didn't spend Christmas or New Years together, and this was sooooo hard being a million miles from my family and friends, I've never had a sadder holiday season as this one. Shortly after the new year I ended it but of course I took him back just so I could be hurt and disappointed one last time and break up again for good a week later. I'm still healing and its been months.
I did make some great friends there and I actually really grew to love it. I got an awesome job, went out with the girls on a regular basis and started to feel a little better about life. Unfortunately its impossible to actually live in Aspen because EVERYTHING is so damn expensive. Also Bruce started dating some new chick that luckily I never had to awkwardly meet and really didn't want to (its a small town). So when my lease was going to end in April I decided to move. I could have moved back home because I missed my family and friends more then you can imagine, but I liked Colorado and I knew that the job opportunities in Michigan were slim and none so instead I chose Denver. I had met a nice guy named James through some of my Aspen friends and he was nice enough to let me stay with him until I got my own place.
So now I'm in Denver, it's a beautiful city and I love it. I got an awesome job making more money, I just leased a new car (because my piece of shit was dying) and I'm about to move into my new apartment this weekend (I just have to get furniture). I'm even making some new girl friends, which is great because if I don't have someone to go out with I'll probably drink a bottle of wine at home and that's not always a good thing. Oh and I haven't smoked a cigarette in weeks, I honestly can't even remember my last one.
I just had my 24th birthday and I can't believe I'm this old already, and I can't believe where I am and what I'm doing. Less then a year ago (about the same time as my last journal entry) I saw myself in a completely different situation then I'm in now. When I was little I would wrap myself in my white sheets and pretend that it was a wedding dress, and I always thought I'd be married or have kids by now or at least close, at least have a potential husband. But I don't have those things, and I know I want them very much but you can't rush something like that or put a time line on it, it will happen when it's right and when it's with the right person, in the mean time I just have to be patient and hold on to the little bit of hope I have that there are actually decent guys out there still.
I still talk to Bruce, not very often and not for very long...just long enough to hurt but hopefully not cry.