2007
... I wish I had followed my heart and gone back to LA... I dont know why things had to happen the way they did... I stayed in bed and got up at 9:30 when my dad and mom came home with friends a lil tispy. To my horror my dad being a lil buzzed, proceeded to tell everyone in the room as well as question me about why I picked such a dead end majors and why I was going no where after college... I just stood there I couldnt say anything ...he kept saying over and over infront of all of his friends that I had no drive or motivation and i would go no where after graduation ... I quietly left the room and went downstairs till I heard them all leave...and I just cried... at around 11 o'clock Trav called and tears rolled down my face because I so wish I was with him than here....but I didnt want him to know so I just pretended things were fine...My parents came home then and went upstairs..At 11:45 Trav called again and was on the phone with me when the ball dropped at midnight...Then Ky called and wished me along with everyone back in LA a Happy New Year... When I got off the phone with them I just cried... There's something about being alone on New Years Eve especially after someone has made you feel like you are nothing that just makes you miss the ones you love and you know love you no matter what....I'll be fine but I feel really sad and low right now.... I miss them soo much and it was just nice to hear everyone's voices...I dont want to be here anymore
Happy New Year....2007