....finish theses thoughts...

[indiablossom]

     I can't believe that I am getting ready for his memorial...I probablly shouldnt have gone to work today, but I did...It was such a crazy day besides work soo many people were calling about when and where this and that was going to be for tommorow... I don't think I'm singing, I might help but we'll see... It's weird not planning on singing tommorow it makes me nervous and thing just a little more harder...I promised Ana I'd stay by her side the whole day, no matter what...I have a feeling that tommorow is going to take alot out of me...
    My heart and stomache are in knots I feel like throwind up and my eyes are so tires because it hurts too much to cry...I just wish I could have one hug....one hug...that's all...something to hold me together for tommorow. I'm just scared... I miss LA