low self esteem rocks the cock
ok, so check it out. i have this fucking amazing boyfriend. im completely in love. my mom's better. elliot has the sweetest girlfriend and i get to pick out his banquet outfit. im psyched.
but somehow...my self esteem is biting the big one. it just up and fell off a cliff. what happened to me?
i guess in a way, i dont feel needed anymore. i helped mom get better, so she doesnt have to rely on me anymore. elliot doesnt rightly need so much girl advice anymore. dad found his little escape from mom's wrath: golfing. i dont know. i guess im just in a slump.
like, if i suddenly died, would anybody have a hard time living without me? i know i know, woot to emo. i get it. but i have a right to be emo once in a while, and right now, it helps a little bit. i need to feel needed, loved.
mike loves me. god i love him. ive never loved someone this way before. its miraculous. but right now, at this very moment...i miss passion. we have everything else. were perfect. i guess sometimes, i just feel at a loss for words. i cant express how i feel to him. i love you doesnt seem enough anymore.i just wish there could be more i could do to show how i feel.
i know everyone has felt my sensitivity brewing lately, whether it was with a barking remark or random tear. im an emotional rollercoaster. i just have to figure out why. so please forgive me for being rediculously sensitive. im just a tad messed up these days.
<3 bridget
but somehow...my self esteem is biting the big one. it just up and fell off a cliff. what happened to me?
i guess in a way, i dont feel needed anymore. i helped mom get better, so she doesnt have to rely on me anymore. elliot doesnt rightly need so much girl advice anymore. dad found his little escape from mom's wrath: golfing. i dont know. i guess im just in a slump.
like, if i suddenly died, would anybody have a hard time living without me? i know i know, woot to emo. i get it. but i have a right to be emo once in a while, and right now, it helps a little bit. i need to feel needed, loved.
mike loves me. god i love him. ive never loved someone this way before. its miraculous. but right now, at this very moment...i miss passion. we have everything else. were perfect. i guess sometimes, i just feel at a loss for words. i cant express how i feel to him. i love you doesnt seem enough anymore.i just wish there could be more i could do to show how i feel.
i know everyone has felt my sensitivity brewing lately, whether it was with a barking remark or random tear. im an emotional rollercoaster. i just have to figure out why. so please forgive me for being rediculously sensitive. im just a tad messed up these days.
<3 bridget