A Week Later
I am proud to say that I have lost 8 lbs by changing my diet up in one week! I can't believe it myself... in fact I'm still in shock that this even happened seeing that I am feeling heavier than ever! I guess giving up soda was the best thing I could've done! Although I would be lying if I said I didn't miss it, I can say that I'm comfortable with the drinking 3+ liters of water a day. I know, I know. I tend to get over excited about stuff and let this be the defining moment in my life. But I think this time it will be a lot different. I'm a lot more motivated to keep doing good things with myself.
Being out of work has been really good for me. I am happier and healthier too. As far as finances go we're doing ok for now. School isn't going so good for me right now though. I should've known better than to do a full fledged math course over the internet without an instructor and minimal instruction. I was actually doing alright with this up until tonight where I totally lost it. Not the interest in the math, just "It" whatever that may be. It's like trying to decipher hieroglyphics without the Rosetta Stone. I know a guy that is special ed and graduated college with an actual graphic artist degree. I cannot fathom him even knowing what the hell is going on, let alone pass all the math levels up to pre-cal/calculus classes. I just don't get this stuff and my resistance to learning it is overly senseless.
I'm thinking about dropping the class, but I know that if I do Paul is going to be super pissed. Not to mention how I would be letting myself down once again. This is the farthest I've gotten on this math course thus far. When I took the remedial class prior to this level I scored an 80 (the minimum to progress to this course) and I was on top of the damn world that day. That class was the same class I'm taking now, but with training wheels. Now I'm dying to figure out what else I can do career wise that won't involve math classes. I hate math. Math can kiss my asymptote.
And yes, I know what an asymptote is. I just don't understand why I need to know that. In fact, speaking of graphing, this entry has kind of been like a negative cubic parabola. Started out on a high note, dived down and stalled right on the joke, then nose dived again. LOL! Oh fuck me running I've got a headache now. Anyway, I should attempt to sleep again. My CPAP machine is still broken so I've been struggling to sleep since Tuesday night. Sleep depraved and slimmer sums it up right about now. LOL!
Being out of work has been really good for me. I am happier and healthier too. As far as finances go we're doing ok for now. School isn't going so good for me right now though. I should've known better than to do a full fledged math course over the internet without an instructor and minimal instruction. I was actually doing alright with this up until tonight where I totally lost it. Not the interest in the math, just "It" whatever that may be. It's like trying to decipher hieroglyphics without the Rosetta Stone. I know a guy that is special ed and graduated college with an actual graphic artist degree. I cannot fathom him even knowing what the hell is going on, let alone pass all the math levels up to pre-cal/calculus classes. I just don't get this stuff and my resistance to learning it is overly senseless.
I'm thinking about dropping the class, but I know that if I do Paul is going to be super pissed. Not to mention how I would be letting myself down once again. This is the farthest I've gotten on this math course thus far. When I took the remedial class prior to this level I scored an 80 (the minimum to progress to this course) and I was on top of the damn world that day. That class was the same class I'm taking now, but with training wheels. Now I'm dying to figure out what else I can do career wise that won't involve math classes. I hate math. Math can kiss my asymptote.
And yes, I know what an asymptote is. I just don't understand why I need to know that. In fact, speaking of graphing, this entry has kind of been like a negative cubic parabola. Started out on a high note, dived down and stalled right on the joke, then nose dived again. LOL! Oh fuck me running I've got a headache now. Anyway, I should attempt to sleep again. My CPAP machine is still broken so I've been struggling to sleep since Tuesday night. Sleep depraved and slimmer sums it up right about now. LOL!