Be Careful What You Wish For
So I have been getting down on myself for a while now about how I don't think I am pretty because guys never come on to me. Well tonight someone did. I keep telling myself that I would like to turn someone down every once in a while, but it kind of sucks. Not because I would have wanted to say yes, which I don't even know because I wasn't in that head space. I felt bad because the guy felt he couldn't talk to me anymore after I told him I was engaged and I threw it out there because I thought he was coming on to me. He didn't actually say, "Hey baby, wanna get it on?". He just asked me what I was doing for the rest of the night. The more I think of it, the more pissed I get. Why would it be ok to have a nice conversation between two individuals when these said individuals are presumed single and not ok when one is clearly taken? I understand that his pride was probably hurt as well as his need to abide by a male code of conduct was being observed. It is just that we were having a nice time talking and then he just excused himself literally moments after the bomb was dropped. I apologized because he didn't actually formally proposition me and I assumed and shut him down. He told me not to worry about it since it was going to happen at some point anyway. That made me feel better because I was beginning to worry that I was being overly presumptuous. I guess I had reason to since he was clearly only being nice to me because he thought he could get somewhere.
Now I hear you saying, "but the ring, the ring must have detered him". Not when said ring is sitting on a bookshelf at home. No, this was not intentional. I always take it off for Rocky shows and since I had a show the night before I left, I forgot to put it back on the next morning. Understandable since I only had 4 hours sleep and was running around trying to think of all the things I didn't think of. I haven't actually worn it much lately unless I go out somewhere without James because I am having an alergic reaction to it and sometimes it is painful to wear. It literally turns me into scale lady with broken skin and everything. Kinda gross. Not sure what to do about that. My plan is to have the little holes on the finger side filled in so that soap, which I am alergic to, doesn't get trapped in there and eat away at me. It is either the soap thing or I might be alergic to the ring itself. I am alergic to anything but 24 carat gold. My ears swell up and everything. Which is sad because I like silver and white gold. It probably isn't that because I have worn white gold before. The only reaosn I think there might be a problem is because I hadn't worn a ring on a daily basis prior to getting engaged and when I wear The Ring on the other hand, nothing happens. It is only when I wear it for an extended period of time. It is going to suck if I have to get a yellow gold ring. I hate gold.
The end.
Now I hear you saying, "but the ring, the ring must have detered him". Not when said ring is sitting on a bookshelf at home. No, this was not intentional. I always take it off for Rocky shows and since I had a show the night before I left, I forgot to put it back on the next morning. Understandable since I only had 4 hours sleep and was running around trying to think of all the things I didn't think of. I haven't actually worn it much lately unless I go out somewhere without James because I am having an alergic reaction to it and sometimes it is painful to wear. It literally turns me into scale lady with broken skin and everything. Kinda gross. Not sure what to do about that. My plan is to have the little holes on the finger side filled in so that soap, which I am alergic to, doesn't get trapped in there and eat away at me. It is either the soap thing or I might be alergic to the ring itself. I am alergic to anything but 24 carat gold. My ears swell up and everything. Which is sad because I like silver and white gold. It probably isn't that because I have worn white gold before. The only reaosn I think there might be a problem is because I hadn't worn a ring on a daily basis prior to getting engaged and when I wear The Ring on the other hand, nothing happens. It is only when I wear it for an extended period of time. It is going to suck if I have to get a yellow gold ring. I hate gold.
The end.