some rules are made with all intentions to break
ok im gonna kill myself
(how bipolar does this journal sound? last 3 first sentences of posts.... 'i hate my life' .. 'i love my life sometimes'... 'ok im gonna kill myself' HAHA)
i am pretty close to quitting boys right now. david and i have had such a splendid few days and snuggling with me all hungover this morning i decided to be bold, be brave, be... something.
'sooooo daviiiddddd'
'yes lizzy?'
'have you decided whether you wanna be with me yet?'
'nope'
'alrighty, just wanted a progress report'
*silence*
'... it's not that i DONT want to be with you'
'david, you dont have to explain yourself to me. its so cold!!!!'
HMM. ok so when was the first time we hooked up? OCTOBER 2006? it's june 2007. am i missing something here?
i've put my head on the chopping block for possibly the 3rd time now and shot down for the third time. so as lovely as he is, and how spoilt i am at the end of the day, i do not believe actions ALWAYS speak louder than words.
and next time i'm probably going to say 'soo if you're still not ready after a million months, maybe im just not the right girl for you. so uh.. good luck finding her cause it's not my style to wait around for anyone except kieran conrau.'
(how bipolar does this journal sound? last 3 first sentences of posts.... 'i hate my life' .. 'i love my life sometimes'... 'ok im gonna kill myself' HAHA)
i am pretty close to quitting boys right now. david and i have had such a splendid few days and snuggling with me all hungover this morning i decided to be bold, be brave, be... something.
'sooooo daviiiddddd'
'yes lizzy?'
'have you decided whether you wanna be with me yet?'
'nope'
'alrighty, just wanted a progress report'
*silence*
'... it's not that i DONT want to be with you'
'david, you dont have to explain yourself to me. its so cold!!!!'
HMM. ok so when was the first time we hooked up? OCTOBER 2006? it's june 2007. am i missing something here?
i've put my head on the chopping block for possibly the 3rd time now and shot down for the third time. so as lovely as he is, and how spoilt i am at the end of the day, i do not believe actions ALWAYS speak louder than words.
and next time i'm probably going to say 'soo if you're still not ready after a million months, maybe im just not the right girl for you. so uh.. good luck finding her cause it's not my style to wait around for anyone except kieran conrau.'