finding the middle path
concerning the recent Topic of Interest, there's another option, and it feels like the best one, all things considered
i need to care about labels just as much as i need to intentionally share this with anyone, but it is helpful to have an umbrella term. Autism is still stigmatized in my mind. in this particular instance, the fact i italicized the word was enough to cause some mental resistance. it is what it is though. it could also be Schizoid Personality Disorder like i said before. in that case, Personality is a problem word for its prefix. in my mind, personhood only applies to the human species. individual, creature, and being concern the rest of us, but then i just have an opinion
anyway...
i can just consider myself as neurodivergent, and i can go just as well without, if there isn't need for it
there is one problem, though. the New Me that was coming into being Summer of last year chilled out alot over time. got used to themselves and all that. somewhere along the way, i decided it was best to assume that everyone thought the same way i did, because i didn't know any better, and i didn't want to presume. to me, in this case, to say i am neurodivergent is the same as saying my mind works differently than the norm, but they're the same thing. normal is whatever you make of the World, and how you understand your existence and your self. different is whatever you are not. the term can also apply to the general Human population, yes, but if you look at that way, aren't you missing the fact that you're comparing the one to the many, and everyone is different, even though they might appear the same on the surface? back to the point, the direction i'm headed clashes with a significant part of my thinking up until now. it's not a huge concern, and i am absolutely the one missing the obvious here, and... that's all for that
work tonight was pretty good overall. it took Mitch and i a little over four and a half hours to face the store, we got through most of the load, the displays are all looking nice, and the back room is tidy and ready for tomorrow. for me, i...
.: faced / stacked all the cans in aisle 6. one side of the aisle has all the tinned seafood, canned beans and other legumes, veg, and soup, as well as instant noodles and broth
.: got through everything for the three aisles i take responsibility for
.: faced the front and back end displays, backfilled a decent amount of Hunts pasta sauce from a display over by the Meat department
.: tided up / repiled the rest of the rest of the load after finishing almost all of the aisle 7-9 stuff. u-boats for aisles 1 and 2, and 3 and 4. a skid with mostly 2-litre bottles of pop, plus some other stuff for aisle 5. a shopping cart of stuff for Leslie, the the lady who maintains the Health and Beauty area. a u-boat with some stuff for other departments
.: moved the pallets and skids over against the wall to clear the space in front of the Receiving bay, swept the floor, and moved a couple other things to clear out the space as best as possible
good night, even better once i got home and that thought came to mind. there were a couple interactions with James that i'm still overthinking, but for now, this is all, because it's 3:38am, and i still need to finish off with laundry, which involves going down to the laundry room, folding it and everything, and putting it all away upstairs
until whenever next time is-
i need to care about labels just as much as i need to intentionally share this with anyone, but it is helpful to have an umbrella term. Autism is still stigmatized in my mind. in this particular instance, the fact i italicized the word was enough to cause some mental resistance. it is what it is though. it could also be Schizoid Personality Disorder like i said before. in that case, Personality is a problem word for its prefix. in my mind, personhood only applies to the human species. individual, creature, and being concern the rest of us, but then i just have an opinion
anyway...
i can just consider myself as neurodivergent, and i can go just as well without, if there isn't need for it
there is one problem, though. the New Me that was coming into being Summer of last year chilled out alot over time. got used to themselves and all that. somewhere along the way, i decided it was best to assume that everyone thought the same way i did, because i didn't know any better, and i didn't want to presume. to me, in this case, to say i am neurodivergent is the same as saying my mind works differently than the norm, but they're the same thing. normal is whatever you make of the World, and how you understand your existence and your self. different is whatever you are not. the term can also apply to the general Human population, yes, but if you look at that way, aren't you missing the fact that you're comparing the one to the many, and everyone is different, even though they might appear the same on the surface? back to the point, the direction i'm headed clashes with a significant part of my thinking up until now. it's not a huge concern, and i am absolutely the one missing the obvious here, and... that's all for that
work tonight was pretty good overall. it took Mitch and i a little over four and a half hours to face the store, we got through most of the load, the displays are all looking nice, and the back room is tidy and ready for tomorrow. for me, i...
.: faced / stacked all the cans in aisle 6. one side of the aisle has all the tinned seafood, canned beans and other legumes, veg, and soup, as well as instant noodles and broth
.: got through everything for the three aisles i take responsibility for
.: faced the front and back end displays, backfilled a decent amount of Hunts pasta sauce from a display over by the Meat department
.: tided up / repiled the rest of the rest of the load after finishing almost all of the aisle 7-9 stuff. u-boats for aisles 1 and 2, and 3 and 4. a skid with mostly 2-litre bottles of pop, plus some other stuff for aisle 5. a shopping cart of stuff for Leslie, the the lady who maintains the Health and Beauty area. a u-boat with some stuff for other departments
.: moved the pallets and skids over against the wall to clear the space in front of the Receiving bay, swept the floor, and moved a couple other things to clear out the space as best as possible
good night, even better once i got home and that thought came to mind. there were a couple interactions with James that i'm still overthinking, but for now, this is all, because it's 3:38am, and i still need to finish off with laundry, which involves going down to the laundry room, folding it and everything, and putting it all away upstairs
until whenever next time is-