Too long I've been afraid of losing love I guess I've lost
This evening was a rather fun experience. I went out to dinner with this guy I've had my eye on from work and I must say that it was something I think I needed, not only as a break in the monotony that's been going on for quite a while now, but for more obvious reasons.
So there's this guy at work I've had my eye on for a bit named Kyle. My attraction to him has only been real recent, as I only really started liking him when I found out he was gay.
I first saw him when he had come in to Y-jack (not as nasty as it sounds, it just means he was listening to a tech on the floor take calls before getting hired on for training). Ironically, at that first sight I thought he was kinda not-so-cute. He was wearing a plain t-shirt, shorts and leather woven guarache-style sandals. But it wasn't so much what he was wearing (though I must admit it his t-shirt made his whole outfit look ill-fitting), but the fact that he had a four or five inch long beard that kinda put me off.
It wasn't until I stumbled upon his MySpace page did I discover he was gay (and very obviously a bear). That suddenly made the time he came over to my desk and talked to me about my prominently displayed RENT Playbill make sense to me then. Cuz honestly, what straight man would admit to mooing during Maureen's performance with such voracity as he said he did? It all kinda fell together then. I suddenly began to see him in a different light. His beard wasn't his only feature. I took more notice of his strong Scandinavian-looking features; the deep-set ice blue eyes, the large teeth with the slight gap between the two front ones, his stout and hirsute body and the nice, thick medium-brown hair. His biggest plus though, I must say was that we could talk about Sailor Moon, something I could never do with a guy I had interest in.
Shortly thereafter, I enlisted Devon's help in getting to know Kyle better. Luckily, he works the same schedule as we do, so we frequently chatted during our breaks. Slowly but surely I was building up to get to know him better. Not only as a device to help me along in putting my break-up behind me, but because I was becoming really interested in him, not just physically but also because of his personality.
So, about two weeks into this back-and-forth with a bunch of innuendo and hints being thrown out (or so Devon believes), I get up the noiv to ask him out.
We are finally able to coordinate for meeting up at C.I. Chu's Mongolian Grill. Devon makes up an elaborate excuse for leaving me there and having it just be Kyle and I. We talked very easily about all kinds of things (musicals, languages, dreams and mostly work and the people we hate there). It was great, we stayed past their closing time because we couldn't stop conversing. Because of Devon's ducking out, I had to have him take me down to 4th, where I had planned to see Matt at Rainbow Planet. I asked Kyle if he wanted to join, but he said he had to do other things that he'd been neglecting. So we parted ways for the evening. I had Devon come for me and I chatted with Matt for a few fleeting moments while I waited.
The "date" was good. I hadn't been on one for quite a while (even when I was still with you-know-who), so I'm glad I knew how to act cool and still knew my way around a "first date" situation. Admittedly, I did also have an assload of advice from Devon crammed in before I met up with him.
But unless my senses are shot, I don't think a lot will come of it. I didn't really feel reciprocal energy from Kyle. Not that I'm all bent out of shape over it, I just don't see it going anywhere. Either that, or it's just gonna be a really slow progress. Regardless, I still think he's an awesome guy and if nothing else I have a new friend who I can be chatty with and can get me a little more immersed in the bear community. But I do think it's great that I can be okay with not having anything come out of it. Cool detachment is something I wanna work on to spare my feelings before I get too invested too soon.
I hope believe that somehow, the events of this evening come to create a better good for me in the near future. Now I wait and see how that'll be.
So there's this guy at work I've had my eye on for a bit named Kyle. My attraction to him has only been real recent, as I only really started liking him when I found out he was gay.
I first saw him when he had come in to Y-jack (not as nasty as it sounds, it just means he was listening to a tech on the floor take calls before getting hired on for training). Ironically, at that first sight I thought he was kinda not-so-cute. He was wearing a plain t-shirt, shorts and leather woven guarache-style sandals. But it wasn't so much what he was wearing (though I must admit it his t-shirt made his whole outfit look ill-fitting), but the fact that he had a four or five inch long beard that kinda put me off.
It wasn't until I stumbled upon his MySpace page did I discover he was gay (and very obviously a bear). That suddenly made the time he came over to my desk and talked to me about my prominently displayed RENT Playbill make sense to me then. Cuz honestly, what straight man would admit to mooing during Maureen's performance with such voracity as he said he did? It all kinda fell together then. I suddenly began to see him in a different light. His beard wasn't his only feature. I took more notice of his strong Scandinavian-looking features; the deep-set ice blue eyes, the large teeth with the slight gap between the two front ones, his stout and hirsute body and the nice, thick medium-brown hair. His biggest plus though, I must say was that we could talk about Sailor Moon, something I could never do with a guy I had interest in.
Shortly thereafter, I enlisted Devon's help in getting to know Kyle better. Luckily, he works the same schedule as we do, so we frequently chatted during our breaks. Slowly but surely I was building up to get to know him better. Not only as a device to help me along in putting my break-up behind me, but because I was becoming really interested in him, not just physically but also because of his personality.
So, about two weeks into this back-and-forth with a bunch of innuendo and hints being thrown out (or so Devon believes), I get up the noiv to ask him out.
We are finally able to coordinate for meeting up at C.I. Chu's Mongolian Grill. Devon makes up an elaborate excuse for leaving me there and having it just be Kyle and I. We talked very easily about all kinds of things (musicals, languages, dreams and mostly work and the people we hate there). It was great, we stayed past their closing time because we couldn't stop conversing. Because of Devon's ducking out, I had to have him take me down to 4th, where I had planned to see Matt at Rainbow Planet. I asked Kyle if he wanted to join, but he said he had to do other things that he'd been neglecting. So we parted ways for the evening. I had Devon come for me and I chatted with Matt for a few fleeting moments while I waited.
The "date" was good. I hadn't been on one for quite a while (even when I was still with you-know-who), so I'm glad I knew how to act cool and still knew my way around a "first date" situation. Admittedly, I did also have an assload of advice from Devon crammed in before I met up with him.
But unless my senses are shot, I don't think a lot will come of it. I didn't really feel reciprocal energy from Kyle. Not that I'm all bent out of shape over it, I just don't see it going anywhere. Either that, or it's just gonna be a really slow progress. Regardless, I still think he's an awesome guy and if nothing else I have a new friend who I can be chatty with and can get me a little more immersed in the bear community. But I do think it's great that I can be okay with not having anything come out of it. Cool detachment is something I wanna work on to spare my feelings before I get too invested too soon.
I hope believe that somehow, the events of this evening come to create a better good for me in the near future. Now I wait and see how that'll be.