starting again
ED SURVEY
Height?: 5'3
Weight?: 110
Lowest Weight?: 101
Highest Weight?: 123
What weight do you want to weigh?: anywhere in between 105 and 114... and maintain it.
What eating disorder do you have?: i think i have bulimia. undiagnosed.
In Depth
How many calories do you eat in a day, on average?: some days itll be less than 500, some days nothing, some days way over 1000.
Do you throw up your food on occasion?: yes, well, its been almost every day now.
Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?: no, theyre ugly
Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track?: nah
Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?: yep
Have you ever fasted? yes, longest ive got away with was 2 days. i like it. it blocks out emotion.
Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?: no. laxatives are pointless pain
Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?: not anymore
Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?: nope.
Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?: no, i can do it fine myself now
Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?: i developed bulimia trying to recover from anorexia. fml.
Body Image Q's
Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?: yes
What part of your body would you change?: stomach (getting surgery next year) and legs.
On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?: 8 i guess. im more concerned about recovering atm.
Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?: sometimes
Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?: yes
Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?: no. i compare myself to real people
Health/Food
Do you think you eat healthy enough?: some days. but when i binge, no.
Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?: im getting over that, carbs are important to me nowdays. at least in main meals.
Fat grams?: yes.
Calories?: i mostly count them
Are you often tired/fatigued?: yes, from depression mostly.
Do you feel more energised after eating food?: yes if im feeling good. otherwise if i eat i feel gross and lethargic
Do you eat meat?: yes, protein is important. dont really like much red meat though
Do you eat your food in a certain way? lol, i chop it up weirdly. does anyone else cut their chicken parma in half horizontally? haha
Do people tell you you look sick or famished?: they tell me i look tired.
Have you ever thrown up blood?: nope
Is your heart bpm above 49?: it was normal last time i checked
Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?: no, but i want to. just so i can justify to myself that im sick enough to get help.
Other Stuff
Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?: yes. thats how i learnt.
What's your opinion of Pro-Ana?: its so supportive...not evil like stupid documentaries say. its the best place ever.
Do you have any other mental disorders? im a cutter, im depressed though i could have bipolar (mum thinks so) and i think im developing mild anxiety. and i'm a hypochondriac, just incase you couldnt tell ;)
What's your favourite food to eat?: i like breakfast cereal, and jalna yoghurt, fruit, eggs. if im shit at life, then chocolate.
Favourite drink?: water
Do you often wish you didn't have an ED?: yes, yes yes . always nowdays.
Do you want to recover?: yes. 100%.