WHO WANNA KNOW!
so ray's like can we hang out today and i'm like maybe. i feel like i can hold my own when i see him now, but i have no idea about him. i realize he's not gonna call until way after he gets off work. he doesn't, and calls just to ask me to hang out tomorrow. i say no, he says he'll call me back. so we talk and he's like are you gonna hook up with anyone at home and i'm like it's none of your business. he's like okay maybe i shouldn't see you then. argue over that.. blahblah, i'm upset cause i wanted to see him.. it's my problem though, i can't change what's best for him, i'm ready now and he's not. the tables have turned.
i guess i got what i wanted all along, for him to stop being so weak. finally he takes a stand for something. it's just annoying that now that i don't get what i want.. when i didn't know what i want and was weak, i would chose to see him or refuse him, i had the control. but now that i know what i want and am comfortable with his presence, he has to decide whether he's ready. he has the control now, i can't see him cause i feel like it anymore.
weird. for the first time i realized on my own what was going on in this situation, and successfully went from being angry to fine again, all on my own!! thank you livejournal.
move on.....
i guess i got what i wanted all along, for him to stop being so weak. finally he takes a stand for something. it's just annoying that now that i don't get what i want.. when i didn't know what i want and was weak, i would chose to see him or refuse him, i had the control. but now that i know what i want and am comfortable with his presence, he has to decide whether he's ready. he has the control now, i can't see him cause i feel like it anymore.
weird. for the first time i realized on my own what was going on in this situation, and successfully went from being angry to fine again, all on my own!! thank you livejournal.
move on.....