fear.

[in_c0ntr0l]

i'm afraid for people to find out about my ED
 because i don't want to get help.

i'm afraid that i'm too fat
  and that no one will ever really love me.

i'm afraid that i'll wake up one day and be double my current weight
  because i watched supersize me and found out that gaining massive amounts of weight over a short period of time IS possible!

i'm afraid that i'm going to mess up my insides
  because secretly, i'd love to have children.

i'm afraid that i've damaged my heart
  because i secretly wish to have something to live for.

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