Hollow
What is the difference between being a bad person and being a good person who does bad things? Are they one in the same, or is there no such thing as ‘good’ and ‘bad’ and is everything we do simply just a decision? These are the questions that struck me as I was driving last Friday, so much so that I felt the need to pull over on the side of the
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i don't believe in apologies. frankly, people can shove their apologies you know where. i see apologies as nothing more than a release of guilt. who does apologizing really benefit? the person apologizing. the person who did wrong is now the one with the peace of mind. this is, if they are truly sorry for what they've done. lets not forget those who hand them out like candy. sweet, plentiful, and empty. even if you do accept someone's apology, that won't make what they did go away. that doesn't mean you won't think about it on christmas, your graduation, 3 am next tuesday.
i don't normally apologize for the things i do anymore because i try to stand by what i do. it took me a long time to get to that point though. if i make a mistake now or hurt someone with my actions, i carry my guilt because i believe i deserve it for doing someone wrong. (can you tell im a bit of a masochist?)
which leads to regretting a lot of what i've done. regretting the way i have dealt with certain situations and the outcomes of those decisions. but everything is 20/20 in hindsight. and if i think about it really hard, the reason i regret those things is because their ends didn't benefit me in any way. so really, it's not a regret that comes from being genuinely sorry, but feeling genuinely sorry for myself.
it sounds horrible put out there so bluntly. but i'd rather be honest, even if that doesn't make me popular with people, than a phony.
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