good fruit/bad fruit
First entry of 2 0 oh-six is feeling like a forced entry (ooh matron)
I'm on a diet of healthy living, BUT----
Just went for chinese with olly, ishita and vv - we've been going for that a lot lately, it feels like. it doesn't help my new rotund shape and fat face, haha. ooh, it's because I got myself happy, and now I've got a boy who makes me even happier - at last! equals food-food-food for me, multiplied by cold weather. haha,, he still doesn't know The Code though ;)
oh but! i forgot all the stress the beginning of a relationship brings! not replying to messages, missed calls/misunderstandings.. it all brings a new level of angst to everything... and missing something that was never even there before is weird, too - I'm enjoying it though, it's sweet and relaxed and just what i needed. On the flip-side, I have completely let all university work slide out of laziness and AGAIN the cold weather, which is awful - i really just can't care anymore!!
I am kind of half missing a friend, too. He used to get in touch, make me happy and cause me to do little dances on the inside that I finally had such a great friend who really cared about me and would just pop round my house, and things like that and was so amazing and i love him//
But he doesn't overly want me anymore, for reasons that i'm to blame for i guess, and now i miss him so , so much. come back properly! but also some people need space/time// a lesson i'm now just learning properly, so i hold out hopes..
'love feels strongest when it's new. i wish i knew how to prove, how to prove that i love you'
love hefnerx
I'm on a diet of healthy living, BUT----
Just went for chinese with olly, ishita and vv - we've been going for that a lot lately, it feels like. it doesn't help my new rotund shape and fat face, haha. ooh, it's because I got myself happy, and now I've got a boy who makes me even happier - at last! equals food-food-food for me, multiplied by cold weather. haha,, he still doesn't know The Code though ;)
oh but! i forgot all the stress the beginning of a relationship brings! not replying to messages, missed calls/misunderstandings.. it all brings a new level of angst to everything... and missing something that was never even there before is weird, too - I'm enjoying it though, it's sweet and relaxed and just what i needed. On the flip-side, I have completely let all university work slide out of laziness and AGAIN the cold weather, which is awful - i really just can't care anymore!!
I am kind of half missing a friend, too. He used to get in touch, make me happy and cause me to do little dances on the inside that I finally had such a great friend who really cared about me and would just pop round my house, and things like that and was so amazing and i love him//
But he doesn't overly want me anymore, for reasons that i'm to blame for i guess, and now i miss him so , so much. come back properly! but also some people need space/time// a lesson i'm now just learning properly, so i hold out hopes..
'love feels strongest when it's new. i wish i knew how to prove, how to prove that i love you'
love hefnerx