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I SWEAR TO GOD, my life is a fucking soap opera. i'm doing EXTREME venting in this bitch because i don't know where to go anymore. okay, remember matt? PERFECT. we were perfect, everything was amazing & then it.. fell apart? we went to the beach together on monday and had such a great time together, the next time he says i'm too scared of commitment, i can't handle this. WTF? dejavu!? i had this shit with john, what is wrong these guys? so now we're gonna "go our seperate ways and forget about each other." yeah lovely. the part that hurts the most is looking back on what we had for those, 3 weeks. his cute away messages that said 'you're the only thing in my life that makes me happy' oh & the best one, 'we all have pasts, but we have to look past them and start a future and i want you in my future' HAHA okay, DON'T FUCK WITH ME. i'm so tempted to call his friend who wanted me before matt to chill but idk that's really mean. okay so i've only known him for 3 weeks, still.. everything was great and i was actually really happy. so, IT'S OVER. i'm sad, i'll get over it.
part 2 to my shitty life. nick called me back the other day- told me some news. he met someone. HE MET SOMEONE! already? he was just crying over me 24/7 and he MET SOMEONE. yeah, i did horrible things to him and dumped his ass but OMG i was shocked, hurt, mad, sad, happy- everything! THEN kristina calls me last night & says sam, i saw nick & "diana" at the mall tonight. OMG, she had a coach bag but she's so tall! haha i love her ♥ a coach bag and she's tall- that's how she describes her haha. okay anyways, isn't it great how nick has someone now and I DON'T? i truly feel like i'm being punished because of what i did to nick, my friends tell me no but i feel like i deserve this in a way. oh well.
um, PART 3 to my shitty life. i got into a fight with alexis. we probably won't talk for a while, i don't feel like explaining it right now cause i'm too pissed and upset but whatever.
MY LIFE IS GOING OUT OF CONTROL. i need help :(
part 2 to my shitty life. nick called me back the other day- told me some news. he met someone. HE MET SOMEONE! already? he was just crying over me 24/7 and he MET SOMEONE. yeah, i did horrible things to him and dumped his ass but OMG i was shocked, hurt, mad, sad, happy- everything! THEN kristina calls me last night & says sam, i saw nick & "diana" at the mall tonight. OMG, she had a coach bag but she's so tall! haha i love her ♥ a coach bag and she's tall- that's how she describes her haha. okay anyways, isn't it great how nick has someone now and I DON'T? i truly feel like i'm being punished because of what i did to nick, my friends tell me no but i feel like i deserve this in a way. oh well.
um, PART 3 to my shitty life. i got into a fight with alexis. we probably won't talk for a while, i don't feel like explaining it right now cause i'm too pissed and upset but whatever.
MY LIFE IS GOING OUT OF CONTROL. i need help :(