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"Okay, I have tried everything. I don't know what else to do. Its out of my hands now. I give up! If you know me really well, you know what I am talking about. If you dont know what I am talking about, I apologize for this being confusing. Its hard to spend time with someone when they dont try to spend time with you. It definitely makes things more difficult. Its hard to really get to know a person when they are trapped so deep in their shell that they wont even let you attempt to pry it open. I am so tired of trying and getting nothing in return."
FUCK.
I AM SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT. everytime someone, or something comes into my life that is good i tend to shut it off or not open up for fear that if i do they will find something the disgust, and then leave. but usually not opening up to them all the way gives them the wrong impression, so FUCK, i dont really know what to do. Jonathan McB your almost married, undoubtebly youve opened yourself up with Kari. if you read this and have some advice please fucking comment or get my number from chris. FUCK.
FUCK.
I AM SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT. everytime someone, or something comes into my life that is good i tend to shut it off or not open up for fear that if i do they will find something the disgust, and then leave. but usually not opening up to them all the way gives them the wrong impression, so FUCK, i dont really know what to do. Jonathan McB your almost married, undoubtebly youve opened yourself up with Kari. if you read this and have some advice please fucking comment or get my number from chris. FUCK.